...lack of...
...haven't been sleeping on a normal schedule lately. been going to bed late...like round 2ish in the morn. if you don't know yet, i've been sick for about 3 weeks now and i finally went to the doctor and he told me i have walking pneumonia. which explains why i've been feeling fine but i'm coughing like a mad man. doc gave me many meds so i should be fine by sunday. then i can be normal again...whatever that may be here in NYC...
...i speak with kate everyday. she keeps me going . i'm goin to see her next month to help her with her new adjustment...as if this wasn't a big enough adjustment. we speak of our future together and i see it so clear but ahead lies many obstacles. i know that we can get through it...and if we can get through this...then our future is as bright as the light of heaven in her eyes. i love the fact that we have spoken everyday (all save one) and we still can talk to each other about new things everyday. i sat on the front porch/stoop today while sipping tea and spoke with her for an hour about her day with the children, whats going on in her life and in ours....i miss those conversations with her in front of me so i can kiss her whenever i want...
...spoke with diddy today. i miss living there. i'll definitly be visiting them when visiting kate. he's doing all right with his "break" but i still worry. i miss sittin on the couch watchin tv, then boguing outside and shootin the shit...i miss living with 3 good friends that'll bend over backwards for you....bend over backwards so you can have a nice night with your girl...::sigh::...big v is not doing alright with his similar change as i have but i think we'll be each other's support...
...finally tomorrow is supposed to be nice so i'm hittin up the city!! should do me good cause i haven't been out in a while...supposed to meet up with val after she gets out of work to chill....she's nice and a good friend to me for such a long time...but God damn can she be annoying....
..off to read and sleep...
...i speak with kate everyday. she keeps me going . i'm goin to see her next month to help her with her new adjustment...as if this wasn't a big enough adjustment. we speak of our future together and i see it so clear but ahead lies many obstacles. i know that we can get through it...and if we can get through this...then our future is as bright as the light of heaven in her eyes. i love the fact that we have spoken everyday (all save one) and we still can talk to each other about new things everyday. i sat on the front porch/stoop today while sipping tea and spoke with her for an hour about her day with the children, whats going on in her life and in ours....i miss those conversations with her in front of me so i can kiss her whenever i want...
...spoke with diddy today. i miss living there. i'll definitly be visiting them when visiting kate. he's doing all right with his "break" but i still worry. i miss sittin on the couch watchin tv, then boguing outside and shootin the shit...i miss living with 3 good friends that'll bend over backwards for you....bend over backwards so you can have a nice night with your girl...::sigh::...big v is not doing alright with his similar change as i have but i think we'll be each other's support...
...finally tomorrow is supposed to be nice so i'm hittin up the city!! should do me good cause i haven't been out in a while...supposed to meet up with val after she gets out of work to chill....she's nice and a good friend to me for such a long time...but God damn can she be annoying....
..off to read and sleep...