theres beauty in the break down

[quieted_opinion]

my backs up against the wall
and all ive got is your pain
in my chest.
all youve given me is a knife
and bloody palms.
I warned myself about you
said i wouldnt give in.
I never did
you pulled me in
like a tidal wave
included was the gagging
and the familiar feel
of drowning.
you've got it down.
To the point you even
believe yourself.
Give yourself a pat on the back
While I pull the knife out of mine.

more violent than usual.

i feel sofunny today. so fake. so....not here.