at least pretend you didnt wanna get caught...

Aug 01, 2004 13:32

... i wanna fucking die...
fuck everything....
blah... im sorry...
im just speaking out of hurt
why the fuck does this happen,
i woulda done anything
you were sober
youve made your choice.
goodbye,.,
you fucking killed me... again

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hmmm gathering_amity August 1 2004, 15:59:18 UTC
i seriously dont know what to say...i could say the same things everyone already said "im here for you...stop being sad...fess up" but you need more than that i suppose, dont you? If i knew exactly what was going i'd try my best...i'd conjure something up if i had the powers...no one should feel that pain, trust me...i'd know...but again...like all the other...and i know im someone you just met..."im here if you need me"

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Re: hmmm quietdante August 1 2004, 16:01:42 UTC
thank you love, likewise...
i know what i need to do....
i hate love.. its synonymis with pain
but...
"without the sour, the sweet's not as sweet"

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Re: hmmm gathering_amity August 1 2004, 16:17:58 UTC
I'm avoiding it at all costs, I do not want to love the way i did once. I honestly dont think its possible to be INLOVE more than once, you will love many, but you cant be INLOVE more than once...unless someone proves me wrong, which is impossible, i have built someone so perfect in my head...no one else is allowed. I have yet to find someone to win my heart or my body over. I'd rather take the sour for a lifetime, than have the sweet...and then have it taken away and return to the sour. So i'm bitter...I cant be hurt again that way atleast.

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Re: hmmm quietdante August 1 2004, 16:22:37 UTC
im in the same crappy boat,,, but i think you can be in love more than once in life.... but.. the thing with love is... love does not mean mutual emotion.. more often than not.. its one sided... ive had lotsa sweet, and even more sour.... you'd think one would become desensitized, but i want a mutual, not perfect, love.... so bad... i can practically taste it... but the way its worked in my long term relationship past... i fall in love with girl...girl says she loves me... note 'says'... girl and i get intimate.... girl doesnt want relationship... im left with a part of me missing..blah,,,,blah...
oh, and why is it so IMPOSSIBLE to prove you wrong? are a tard or something?
haha

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Re: hmmm gathering_amity August 1 2004, 16:30:06 UTC
I know love doesnt mean mutual emotion, I feel it was just I who was really inlove in my past relationship. How old are you to have that many sweets...and much more sours? Mutual love is hard to find, usually only in films. and even then, if you look into it...you'd think...they dont tell you what happened after they got married...they probably divorced a few months later.blegh! What happens to you with the female race is what happens to almost every female. But i can tell you are sensitive, and it usually happens to the best in the male race. Not uncommon. Its impossible for anyone to prove me wrong, because i wont allow any other male in to be able to. No one has charmed me enough yet. Not after the last one.

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Re: hmmm quietdante August 1 2004, 16:35:22 UTC
well... im not even gonna step into the whole gender superiority thing.. i dont wanna start a bar brawl...haha... but im gonna be 21 in oct
people say, you're young and you dont know what love is...but they dont know shit.... when you are you know... there is no question.. you are willing to make sacrafices.... and in my cases... the other individuals were not as committed or willing to make sacrafice... they didnt value the relationship to the point where they would go without or risk all types of hardship for it to endure.... i did... but like i said... most all relationships are not in equallibrium...

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Re: hmmm gathering_amity August 1 2004, 16:45:04 UTC
I wasnt even discussing gender superiority, just statistics. You definitely are young, but you are right, alot of people say you just know when you are inlove (including the oracle from the matrix). But to me you are seeming like you need someone in your life. How long have your relationships been? Commitment is a big thing when you are young, i was ready for it, but who i was with didnt know what love was. And you seem like you think you are ready to settle, you just havent found someone who felt the same way as far as long term.

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Re: hmmm quietdante August 1 2004, 16:47:41 UTC
the time spans vary... from 6months (for love i to develop i mean) to 2 and 1/2 years
yeh
i do need.. but thats not necessarily bad.. its just as bad to not need..

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Re: hmmm gathering_amity August 1 2004, 16:51:53 UTC
wow...no long paragraph in return...so your shortest relationship has been 6 months? and your longest 2 1/2? and with all of them you have been "inlove"? what was the time inbetween when you had no one? were many of them rebounds? when did you start dating? you must have been a very good looking little boy, child, adolecent, and now adult i guess...right? I myself dont feel i need it...i had enough of it...relationships come with those complications and you have to make time for that "significant other" at the moment. I want to focus on getting myself to my goal right now.

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Re: hmmm just_bfore_dawn August 1 2004, 19:55:27 UTC
not to rub it in...but to hopefully provide hope...

i have been married for the greater part of a year. and though i realize we are young both in age and our marriage...i can honestly say we love each other mutually. and i found him when i had stopped looking. keep your eyes open without expectation and experience glory over regret.

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Re: hmmm gathering_amity August 2 2004, 07:45:05 UTC
I'd really like to know how this goes in 5 more years, i'm sorry to say this (yes im very bitter) but it seems like now a days...marriages dont last longer than a year. Im hoping with all my heart this really works out for you...

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Re: hmmm just_bfore_dawn August 2 2004, 12:28:39 UTC
i think its an important fact that divorce is rare in both my and michaels families. also, that we knew each other for years prior to deciding to wed each other will benefit us. plus, our motives were not because we are romantics or we had pressure fom family or a pregnancy...it was because we were ready. theres a difference between two people who just get married and a married COUPLE.

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Re: hmmm gathering_amity August 2 2004, 23:26:20 UTC
well...i wish you luck then...

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make sense?? just_bfore_dawn August 1 2004, 19:50:28 UTC
i think the only reason the "youre only in love once" rule is true is because when you have found that true love it minimizes anything else you may have previously beleived to be love. then, once you have this true love...its there til the end. so like....youd never know if you were able to "fall in love" again or not. but then yeah...once you DID (if you did) it has to be at least one notch better than the last "love" because they havent left you yet. so its a lil cycle. my advice: find someone who makes you happy and that you are happy to please and hold on to em. not someone who entertains you or has been around for awhile.

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Re: make sense?? gathering_amity August 2 2004, 07:46:42 UTC
I hope you are right...i have yet to see this though...

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my opinion doesn't count for much... aretrochick August 1 2004, 20:33:58 UTC
I believe you can be in love more than once...I was lucky enough to have it...3 times =\...yes 3...and even though I get screwed...It's still the best feeling to have. If you get hurt...it's still feels good to look back and see that you had it!

i'm a loser...sorry!

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