End of an era

[quiet_heartache]

So. My Secondary School life is officially over. Sort of. I still have exams and some revision sessions but I not technically a student at my school any more. Scary. Seriously. And don't even get me started on how unprepared I am for even my first two (morning, back to back) exams!!!!

Anyway, I figure I'm due a post and after some comments with chromeheart  I decided to put a sum up song for my school life, and a personal favourite...

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In the crowd outside
Late December, no snow
I follow you
Through the crowd

You stroke your fingers
Lightly against my cheek

And in the blink of an eye
When everything is still
Then I get a chance to tell you
All the things I never said
Then I get a chance to give you
All the things you never had
But I was too cowardly

There is a simple answer
You are hot when I am cold
You take up so little space
I take it all

I press my lips
Lightly against your neck

I ask "are you crying?"
You taste like salt

You gave me a chance to tell you
All the things I never said
You gave me a chance to give you
All the things I never gave you

The small, small words are hard words
And the hard words are simple words
I had the chance, you gave me the chance
But now it's too late
Now it's too late

These are the lyrics translated, and ok so it's about a hard relationship etc, but I like the... regret in it. I don't think my life has been devoid of happiness but I hold the biggest grudges against myself for not doing or saying things.
I won't go into specifics but hopefully this next stage of education will be 'en chans' to do some of the things I haven't done before but thought about, and to step out of my comfort zone an eensy weensy bit. And if it all goes wrong I can always go and live with my wonderful grandma who only lives a hour away from the uni lol... Poor grandma.

I hope this entry is not as depressing as it looks to me now, but I am just terribly nostalgic right now. I wish you all well with your various goings on, and I know some of you are in the same position as me whilst others roll their eyes supportively at my overdramaticness :D

Goodnight