Day 6543-- "I don't need to fight to prove I'm right."
"Everyone's got a love story!"
That's what someone in the lab here said... I don't know what was said to get on the subject, but that's what I heard when my iPod was switching songs. I put it on pause so I can keep listening (they're discussing video games on the side), and while I feel silly for eavesdropping, that was truly one of the greatest quotes I could use... Something you just hear in passing, and it's brilliant on its own. It got me thinking... Does everyone have a love story?
I suppose I do... is really much of anything? I guess it's something... But it's taken such a strange turn... Like all the great stuff has come and gone, and I'm living a bad sequel.
That's a bad metaphor. I really love the quiet of having things calmed down with Clayton... It's just like my "love story" has reached a climax, and its headed toward "Happily Ever After", which is just a few words to say that the rest of the story was too boring to tell. Is that what it's going to be for me? I don't know... there could be more to say... I just haven't called Clayton since Sunday, where we had a five minute conversation about nothing in particular, until I found he was busy... and I figure he's going to be busy for a while... So I stopped calling. I won't call tonight, either. I don't really want to interupt his life back home. Its going to be okay, I think. Maybe he won't be so busy eventually.
Maybe I'll have time to figure out if I'm stuck in limbo in my love story. I don't like feeling like I'm just hanging as "the girlfriend", who is like a half-friend, with some extra benefits of being a talking post, supporter, cheerleader, part mother, and whatever else is needed. I miss being a full friend. I miss being part of something and not shuffled off to the side... If I were to demand anything more than what's left over from everything else, I'd be "that bitch", and I'd hate that. I'm retreating back into my proper role for now.
I've been having fun here, though things have been subdued. I went to Liverpool on Sunday, and have been exploring Ormskirk little by little. I think I might take a day trip to Wales this weekend, during the holiday that's going on... If I find somewhere I want to go that's relatively cheap, I think I'll go. Whatever works out, I'll do.
That's what someone in the lab here said... I don't know what was said to get on the subject, but that's what I heard when my iPod was switching songs. I put it on pause so I can keep listening (they're discussing video games on the side), and while I feel silly for eavesdropping, that was truly one of the greatest quotes I could use... Something you just hear in passing, and it's brilliant on its own. It got me thinking... Does everyone have a love story?
I suppose I do... is really much of anything? I guess it's something... But it's taken such a strange turn... Like all the great stuff has come and gone, and I'm living a bad sequel.
That's a bad metaphor. I really love the quiet of having things calmed down with Clayton... It's just like my "love story" has reached a climax, and its headed toward "Happily Ever After", which is just a few words to say that the rest of the story was too boring to tell. Is that what it's going to be for me? I don't know... there could be more to say... I just haven't called Clayton since Sunday, where we had a five minute conversation about nothing in particular, until I found he was busy... and I figure he's going to be busy for a while... So I stopped calling. I won't call tonight, either. I don't really want to interupt his life back home. Its going to be okay, I think. Maybe he won't be so busy eventually.
Maybe I'll have time to figure out if I'm stuck in limbo in my love story. I don't like feeling like I'm just hanging as "the girlfriend", who is like a half-friend, with some extra benefits of being a talking post, supporter, cheerleader, part mother, and whatever else is needed. I miss being a full friend. I miss being part of something and not shuffled off to the side... If I were to demand anything more than what's left over from everything else, I'd be "that bitch", and I'd hate that. I'm retreating back into my proper role for now.
I've been having fun here, though things have been subdued. I went to Liverpool on Sunday, and have been exploring Ormskirk little by little. I think I might take a day trip to Wales this weekend, during the holiday that's going on... If I find somewhere I want to go that's relatively cheap, I think I'll go. Whatever works out, I'll do.