☥ 4th. {video} you worry about the wrong things the wrong things

[quiesquietis]

--City, I don't mean to distract from your winter festivity preparations for no good reason, if you observe any that happen to occur around this time of year, and I'll leave you in peace to continue them in a minute, but I just have to say that attempting to observe the stopping of the wheel without any fellow kithain to join me makes it--well, I

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[byweavinglives]

How many?

[quiesquietis]

How many kithain?

[byweavinglives]

Yes.

[quiesquietis]

It's--I didn't articulate myself well, I think, it's not precisely a ritual I need other fae to help me celebrate. I could very well not observe it at all. I'm honestly not sure what came over me to complain about it, today I've felt...very odd.

But how have you been lately?

[byweavinglives]

More talkative than usual?

Fine. Did you get kissed?

[quiesquietis]

More than that, just--oh, I don't know, confident? It's not a bad feeling.

Oh, no. No, I stayed very much inside.

[byweavinglives]

You're not interested in kissing?

[quiesquietis]

I--ah, not really, not like that. Isn't it--it just seems upsetting and very--intrusive of the City, to do something like that to people, whether they want it or not.

[byweavinglives]

It doesn't have to mean anything.

[quiesquietis]

I know this might be old-fashioned sounding, but I don't apply this to anyone else, it's just...to me it means something when I kiss someone, even though I know it doesn't have to.

It's just--I'm making a big deal out of it, never mind.

[byweavinglives]

Why?

[quiesquietis]

Because I am old-fashioned. I suppose if I was going to kiss anyone these days I'd want it to be someone I loved, but I--you know, I'm just not interested in any of that business.

[byweavinglives]

In love?

I'm not interested in love, either.

[quiesquietis]

Love, dating, fucking. I don't want any of that.

And it just--it bothers me when people see that as a bad thing. Doesn't it bother you? Or, well, probably not, you're rarely bothered by anything.

[byweavinglives]

I like fucking. Orgasms are very pleasant things. But I'm not interested in love, or the emotional tangles it entails.

But no, it doesn't bother me. It doesn't bother me that you don't like to fuck, or kiss.

[quiesquietis]

That's smart, I think--it sounds like it works for you, and that's what matters.

Thank you. You'd think what people do with their own bodies wouldn't be anyone else's damn business, but there you go. Some people think they have a right to judge anything they want to. And maybe they do, that still doesn't mean they should.