Not Excited!!
Well...u would think because my 18 b-day is tomorrow i would be excited...but shit im not...im kinda scared...not because im growin up and shit...no its because of other reasons...dat im not gonna talk bout on here...i hope it doesn't have to come to wat da worst possible scenario im thinkin of...please...if push comes to shove i KNOW I can DO IT...but...IDK...hope it doesn't come to it...and i hope i don't see him...i will be straped wit something...for da next couple of days...i pray everything turns out ok...because...i can't leave da people around me yet...i just need a little more time...i just hope it doesn't happen...when im wit some special people especially a special person...by-myself i can handle it...but ill worried for da people around me than for me...like i tell people i don't care bout my safety i care bout da safety wit da people im wit...but i know im ready...god has prepared me for dis...i just gotta keep my cool and be alert...See ya later!!