one year today

[quidamisdead]

360 days further away from the last time i saw you...then again the last time i got to see you was after it was too late, hah! "too late" fuck euphamisms! the last time i saw you, well, you were already cold, compliments of your twisted, cruel and last, but not least, completely insane, wife. lets all take a moment to thank her for pulling the plug

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[andrewsarmywife]

my sentiments exactly... to the tee. it's uncanny. i admire that you can get on and post this stuff. it all just sorta creeps up on me at inconvenient moments...like when i'm driving and a song that has some sort of sentimental value comes on the radio (always one that jon and i had sung at the top of our lungs together at one point or another...i can usually hear him harmonizing like he always used to do). i just sorta push it away...after all, while you're driving is an inconvenient time to get misty eyed or angry and it makes me feel less guilty about not dealing... after all, i have to drive, right? maybe i'll get on here one of these days and just start tapping away at the keys. maybe i'll write a book. maybe i'll get the balls to take the cd i have of him singing and actually put it away with the rest of his stuff that i have in the attic and then come back down and just fall apart. then i can be done with it all. but i'm not ready. there's just too much history from way back when we were little little kids that i'm not ready to

[quidamisdead]

you dont realize how youve put my feelings into words also...love you cake.

[anonymous]

where are you?