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I'm not quite sure how I feel at the moment. I know tired is one feeling, but beyond that...I'm not quite sure.
Stuff that's happened over the past week:
*A really good friend of mine is in the hospital
*I haven't fallen asleep before 5AM for the past three days
*I actually broke down crying when talking about my grades with Heather a few days ago
*I made a post on Katy's Xanga about my stance on religion and realized while typing it that I was jealous of the fact that my sister was a more devout Catholic than I am (more about that below)
*I failed yet another Greek quiz
*Other stuff that I can't remember at the moment
Hell, I'm crying as I type this. I think that everything has just decided to crash down on my right now. God, I wish my mom was here. Or Ben. Or somebody. *breaks down and cries for a while*
Anyway...*blows nose* You guys are probably curious about what I said above about Brianna. A few days ago, Katy put up a post in her Xanga about her family and religion. I put up a comment about my stance on being a Catholic.
My comment, in case you haven't seen it (italicized just for kicks ;-)):
...damn, hon. I thought my mother was a staunch Catholic, but damn. I think I might have mentioned this before, but when I told her my credo on my friends (don't care what religion, what sexual orientation, etc. you are; as long as you're not an asshole, I'll be friends with you.) she said that she was concerned about the fact that a person's faith didn't bother me. *grins* What I get a kick out of is that, even though she thought like that, she allowed me to date a Pagan (my first bf practiced what I like to call Greek Polytheism; he worshipped the Greek pantheon, Athena to be specific) and a Methodist.
Religion's always been an interesting thing with me. As I mentioned at Coldstone a few nights ago, the last time I went to mass because I wanted to was in 11th grade. I still believe in the guy upstairs and I still think of myself as a Christian...I'm just not sure if I think of myself as a Catholic. I know if my mom found out that I haven't been to mass at all this semester (and only went for Easter last year) she'd spaz out.
Brianna told me a bit ago that she'd found Jesus through her youth group a whlie ago, which is never a bad thing. It just made me realize that I almost didn't really care that I was Catholic. Apparently being a cradle Catholic can do that to you; most of my friends here in Tally either were Catholic and converted to something else or they're just really unhappy with organized religion as a whole.
*looks up at her post* Damn, that's pretty long. *smiles* Anyway, it was great to finally meet you and hang out with you. If I manage to get up to NYC this spring break, I'll make sure to get in touch with you. Until then, I hope you get things figured out. You know my AIM, so drop me a line if ya need to talk. *hugs*
Catch you on the flip side...
^_^ Caitlin
Your friendly neighborhood Latin nerd
Right after typing the first line of the third paragraph, I started tearing up. At first, I wasn't quite sure why. After talking with my friend Ron for a while, I realized that, for some reason, I thought that she was happier being a more devout Catholic than I was being my little been-to-mass-twice-since-I-started-college self. But, I realized that while I may not go to St. Thomas Moore every Sunday, I still consider myself a Christian. As Ron put it, "It's my personal belief that the true meaning of organized religion is to give a guide and path to those who cannot find a path of their own (not that those people are bad, just lost)."
Anyway, it's a bit after four and I have to get up in five hours to study for my Greek quiz tomorrow. *hugs* See you guys later.
Catch you on the flip side...
^_^ Caitlin
Your friendly neighborhood Latin nerd
Quote of the Day:
"Everyone ought to worship God according to his own inclinations, and not to be constrained by force." - Flavius Josephus (37-100 AD)
Stuff that's happened over the past week:
*A really good friend of mine is in the hospital
*I haven't fallen asleep before 5AM for the past three days
*I actually broke down crying when talking about my grades with Heather a few days ago
*I made a post on Katy's Xanga about my stance on religion and realized while typing it that I was jealous of the fact that my sister was a more devout Catholic than I am (more about that below)
*I failed yet another Greek quiz
*Other stuff that I can't remember at the moment
Hell, I'm crying as I type this. I think that everything has just decided to crash down on my right now. God, I wish my mom was here. Or Ben. Or somebody. *breaks down and cries for a while*
Anyway...*blows nose* You guys are probably curious about what I said above about Brianna. A few days ago, Katy put up a post in her Xanga about her family and religion. I put up a comment about my stance on being a Catholic.
My comment, in case you haven't seen it (italicized just for kicks ;-)):
...damn, hon. I thought my mother was a staunch Catholic, but damn. I think I might have mentioned this before, but when I told her my credo on my friends (don't care what religion, what sexual orientation, etc. you are; as long as you're not an asshole, I'll be friends with you.) she said that she was concerned about the fact that a person's faith didn't bother me. *grins* What I get a kick out of is that, even though she thought like that, she allowed me to date a Pagan (my first bf practiced what I like to call Greek Polytheism; he worshipped the Greek pantheon, Athena to be specific) and a Methodist.
Religion's always been an interesting thing with me. As I mentioned at Coldstone a few nights ago, the last time I went to mass because I wanted to was in 11th grade. I still believe in the guy upstairs and I still think of myself as a Christian...I'm just not sure if I think of myself as a Catholic. I know if my mom found out that I haven't been to mass at all this semester (and only went for Easter last year) she'd spaz out.
Brianna told me a bit ago that she'd found Jesus through her youth group a whlie ago, which is never a bad thing. It just made me realize that I almost didn't really care that I was Catholic. Apparently being a cradle Catholic can do that to you; most of my friends here in Tally either were Catholic and converted to something else or they're just really unhappy with organized religion as a whole.
*looks up at her post* Damn, that's pretty long. *smiles* Anyway, it was great to finally meet you and hang out with you. If I manage to get up to NYC this spring break, I'll make sure to get in touch with you. Until then, I hope you get things figured out. You know my AIM, so drop me a line if ya need to talk. *hugs*
Catch you on the flip side...
^_^ Caitlin
Your friendly neighborhood Latin nerd
Right after typing the first line of the third paragraph, I started tearing up. At first, I wasn't quite sure why. After talking with my friend Ron for a while, I realized that, for some reason, I thought that she was happier being a more devout Catholic than I was being my little been-to-mass-twice-since-I-started-college self. But, I realized that while I may not go to St. Thomas Moore every Sunday, I still consider myself a Christian. As Ron put it, "It's my personal belief that the true meaning of organized religion is to give a guide and path to those who cannot find a path of their own (not that those people are bad, just lost)."
Anyway, it's a bit after four and I have to get up in five hours to study for my Greek quiz tomorrow. *hugs* See you guys later.
Catch you on the flip side...
^_^ Caitlin
Your friendly neighborhood Latin nerd
Quote of the Day:
"Everyone ought to worship God according to his own inclinations, and not to be constrained by force." - Flavius Josephus (37-100 AD)