Scared to die?
It is funny how often I get the question if I am scared about going into the military since we are in a war right now or if I am scared to die. One hears about these questions but I never really thought they were asked until a year ago when I came to UM, now it is pretty regular.
How does one answer the question are you scared to die? Well yes and no. I would be honored to give up my life for someone else, or for something that I believed in. Am I scared what will happen after I die? No, I use to be but what ever happens happens. I have lived the best life I think I could have, I have been kind to everyone and I put others before myself. I believe that I am a genuinely good person, regardless of me lacking a solid religious base I believe God will sort all that out.
Someone dear to me asked me a while ago "But wouldn't you rather want to live for something?" It made me realize that I was being selfish. I never thought about the people around me who love and care about me. While I would be glad to die for someone or something is that fair to subject everyone around me to? Does dieing for something outweigh living for someone?
What is it that I am scared of about being in the military? Leaving those people who love me behind. Not seeing my kids grow up because I am away often. Having an alienated wife from being alone. I'm scared that I am so busy right now with life that I don't have time to live. That I'll be to busy to find love again and be destined to a life without a partner.
Dieing is easy, it is the only true requirement in life. Living however, that is the scary part.
How does one answer the question are you scared to die? Well yes and no. I would be honored to give up my life for someone else, or for something that I believed in. Am I scared what will happen after I die? No, I use to be but what ever happens happens. I have lived the best life I think I could have, I have been kind to everyone and I put others before myself. I believe that I am a genuinely good person, regardless of me lacking a solid religious base I believe God will sort all that out.
Someone dear to me asked me a while ago "But wouldn't you rather want to live for something?" It made me realize that I was being selfish. I never thought about the people around me who love and care about me. While I would be glad to die for someone or something is that fair to subject everyone around me to? Does dieing for something outweigh living for someone?
What is it that I am scared of about being in the military? Leaving those people who love me behind. Not seeing my kids grow up because I am away often. Having an alienated wife from being alone. I'm scared that I am so busy right now with life that I don't have time to live. That I'll be to busy to find love again and be destined to a life without a partner.
Dieing is easy, it is the only true requirement in life. Living however, that is the scary part.