Texas
So I've come down to a conclusion. Which is to go down to Texas and stay a year until Nick gets his own place. I know it will be hard and I am told plenty of times in the day that I'm too young and we haven't been dating that long. Everyone just needs to know that it's different and time never matters. If you have feelings for someone thats just how it is. You can't hide them or pretend they are childish. I have finally come around to trusting another guy after finding out a bunch of secrets that were kept from me in my previous relationship here. so yes, I know were young and I am not basing this conclusion around him or the relationship. This is what I want to do. This is what would make me happy.
In all honesty I can't wait until I am in Texas again. I love it there. Obviously being born and raised there. I love the weather, the people well minus the drivers they are nuts but I just feel so good there. I feel like it's where I'm suppose to be. The only thing sad about it is the fact that Nick won't be there. I just hope we don't drift apart and go different ways. I don't know though, like I said he seems so much different in all good ways. I haven't told him yet though. He told me that if I promised I would return that he would wait but I'm hoping his decision doesn't change. I know he would never break a promise, and I wouldn't either. I just know it will be hard. nothing seems to be easy anymore.
I feel bad for my dad. It must be hard for him to watch us pack. Even though in the past he wasn't the ideal father in any way, I still know he cares. We use to tell each other we loved each other. This was when I was in Texas and I would make my family phone calls every now and then to see how they were all doing without me there. Now we hardly talk. I hate it.
As for work, I can't wait to leave the tanning place. It's been so slow and boring that I'm almost losing my mind.