Tears,confusion, and stress
I have reached my breaking point in this house. A few days ago I lost it after hearing my grandma talk shit about me behind my back to my aunt lori. Good thing she didn't know I was in the room next to her when it happened because I walked out and said something to her. I then went down stairs and told my mom I am not staying here another week. My grandma constantly yells at my brother and blames everything on my mom. Straight up she is a bitch. Sorry to those who don't see it but living with her has showed me a new her and I don't like. We got her a really nice photo album from hobby lobby for christmas and she gave it to me!! Who does that seriously. Does she not remember who bought that for her.
I still can't find a job. I'm pretty tired of walking into stores that say they are hiring and tell them I can work anytime anyday and them sounding promising then nothing happens. Unfortantly, I'm probally going to Texas. My mom's friend is already helping me out by finding me jobs. I don't wanna go but I need a job. I need to make money. I wanna be somewhere that I feel wanted. I hate going upstairs now. I just feel so unwelcomed and I hate that feeling so much. I just want things to be good, I'm getting so stressed and I'm ready to explode. I need to do something and I need to make some decisions. I love Nick but he understands that I need to do what is best for me. I don't want to lose him. I just don't know what to do....
I still can't find a job. I'm pretty tired of walking into stores that say they are hiring and tell them I can work anytime anyday and them sounding promising then nothing happens. Unfortantly, I'm probally going to Texas. My mom's friend is already helping me out by finding me jobs. I don't wanna go but I need a job. I need to make money. I wanna be somewhere that I feel wanted. I hate going upstairs now. I just feel so unwelcomed and I hate that feeling so much. I just want things to be good, I'm getting so stressed and I'm ready to explode. I need to do something and I need to make some decisions. I love Nick but he understands that I need to do what is best for me. I don't want to lose him. I just don't know what to do....