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This past week has been emotionally...and mentally draining. So much has happend. Well not so much.....but I feel like things have been getting more hectic and hectic as the semester draws to a close.
I feel so out of wack; so behind in everything. I feel like I'm wasting time just thinking about stuff rather than actually doing the stuff. Ugh. I'm just tired of it. I need to get it together. Like....now. I only have like what...2 more months or so to figure out what my next step is. And on top of that I've got to start thinking about how I'm going to deal with the whole dad situation. I just can't go back there. I can't.
I've never had to deal with such drama you know? Especially from someone who's related to me. I've just come to the realization that I can't just keep brushing things off; I can't just stand for it anymore. I'm going to tell my dad how disappointed I am in him and that I want NOTHING to do with the rest of his family. NOTHING. I'm grown for heaven's sake. I shouldn't have to put up with his shit and all the uneccessary drama he brings to my life.
So yeah...I've got to deal with that once I get back for break, figure out what I'm gonna do for now, finish what I started a while back, ugh.
I just wish.....I could just do it. But fear...is hold me back.
Booooooooooooooooooooooooo. Life is hard right now. So hard. My dad sucks.
::Sigh::
I feel so out of wack; so behind in everything. I feel like I'm wasting time just thinking about stuff rather than actually doing the stuff. Ugh. I'm just tired of it. I need to get it together. Like....now. I only have like what...2 more months or so to figure out what my next step is. And on top of that I've got to start thinking about how I'm going to deal with the whole dad situation. I just can't go back there. I can't.
I've never had to deal with such drama you know? Especially from someone who's related to me. I've just come to the realization that I can't just keep brushing things off; I can't just stand for it anymore. I'm going to tell my dad how disappointed I am in him and that I want NOTHING to do with the rest of his family. NOTHING. I'm grown for heaven's sake. I shouldn't have to put up with his shit and all the uneccessary drama he brings to my life.
So yeah...I've got to deal with that once I get back for break, figure out what I'm gonna do for now, finish what I started a while back, ugh.
I just wish.....I could just do it. But fear...is hold me back.
Booooooooooooooooooooooooo. Life is hard right now. So hard. My dad sucks.
::Sigh::