Raindrops falling on my head, but that doesn't mean that I am dead
"Throw me a dream please, it's been a dreamless sleep
For such a long time, such a long time
Sing myself awake
Watch the branches break
No one could ever take your place"
I just. I can't even begin. Just when everything seems on the road to perfect, a roundabout confuses us and turns us right back towards hell. Maybe I'm just oblivious, oblivious to the road signs that say stop turn around now, this is the way to perfect, but YOU just can't get there.
It was my fault that our friendship shattered and the pieces just scattered into oblivion. So, I searched and I scoured and picked up every single one of those pieces. And I worked hard to neatly fit the pieces back together. To build back the friendship we had. But I realize fate has a way of handling things and maybe all of this is just telling me that despite what my heart wants, I just need to suck it up and stay away. But it's nothing against you. I just want to make everyone happy. And it's apparent that obviously doesn't involve me being happy too.
However unfortunate I may feel about this situation, it will get better. Everything will be fine (I just have to keep telling myself this).
.......
I went to Little 5 Points today. I'm never ever going there by myself again. It was daylight and it was scary.
I also spent like 10 years in Borders, but I got a few people's Christmas gifts out of the way. Hopefully, they will like them, but I make no guarantees because I'm feeling disconnected from almost everyone. I tried. It's the thought that counts, right? Maybe.
For such a long time, such a long time
Sing myself awake
Watch the branches break
No one could ever take your place"
I just. I can't even begin. Just when everything seems on the road to perfect, a roundabout confuses us and turns us right back towards hell. Maybe I'm just oblivious, oblivious to the road signs that say stop turn around now, this is the way to perfect, but YOU just can't get there.
It was my fault that our friendship shattered and the pieces just scattered into oblivion. So, I searched and I scoured and picked up every single one of those pieces. And I worked hard to neatly fit the pieces back together. To build back the friendship we had. But I realize fate has a way of handling things and maybe all of this is just telling me that despite what my heart wants, I just need to suck it up and stay away. But it's nothing against you. I just want to make everyone happy. And it's apparent that obviously doesn't involve me being happy too.
However unfortunate I may feel about this situation, it will get better. Everything will be fine (I just have to keep telling myself this).
.......
I went to Little 5 Points today. I'm never ever going there by myself again. It was daylight and it was scary.
I also spent like 10 years in Borders, but I got a few people's Christmas gifts out of the way. Hopefully, they will like them, but I make no guarantees because I'm feeling disconnected from almost everyone. I tried. It's the thought that counts, right? Maybe.