Time will turn
It's 12 o'clock in the afternoon.
and..
I am not in school. I am at the public library which sits not even 5 minutes from my house.
I should be in school.
But in all thanks to my mother, this day was possible.
I came home from work at about 10 p.m yesterday night. (my ride got out of work late)
I ignore my non exsistent dinner in the kitchen, and go downstairs.
A habit I am quite used to now.
I seek out the corner of my living room that is mine. And to my dismay I find the computer has been ripped from its dark hole.
Ugh.
(first thought to come to mind) There goes my 3 page paper out the window.
(second thought) Fuck. My mom's mad a me. (fight)
(third) My night is ruined I might as well get this over with.. .
I look over to my mother. She is pearched in her usual spot watching propagana on the television.
"Why is the computer gone? I have a three page paper due tomorrow..."
I didn't even want to hear her excuse it's always the same.. "You don't do anything.. worthless...chores...kids...grades..bad influence..horrible person.."
"The quater ends soon, I can't not do this assginment.... I need the points, I need to use the computer"
"Too bad, you had all week to do it"
"NO I DIDN'T" (fight commenses) "This was a movie assignment..we watch a movie in class and when we finish it we write a paper on it, that is due the next day"
"Too bad."
I realized this wasn't going to solve anything.. I was fighting with the women who once tried to make me pay for my dentist bill when I was 15.
"Well if I can't do it tonight, I'm not going to school tomorrow.. there's no point in failing"
"Write it and tell her your computer broke..shit happens" she disgustingly mummered (teaching her kids how to lie...nice.)
"I can't do that she'll take points off...." (plus I had used the excuse above too many times before)
There's silence.
"Fine.. I'm not going to school.. whatever." (I'm such a teenager sometimes)
Silence.
No protest?
There was no protest this time..
She knew what she was doing.. and by the vacant expression on her face she didn't care at all.
No wonder I have no motivation to do homework...
So here I sit.. I am not in school...I'm missing the work I should be doing. And soon I have to figure out a ride to work.. with my mother mad at me it's not likely she'll bring me. I have to get Sarah off the bus at four which dosen't give me enough time to walk to work.
I'll worry about it later.
I have to go finish my paper.