A Reminder. Oct. 29th 2005

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Apprently I like to get involved with people who like to fuck with my head.

I mean.. really.
I must attract them some how.

I just can't fucking win.

FUCK.

Why the hell am I complaining?
I'm not dying.. I don't need life support to live.
I'm a wreck.
I'm a mess.

Anyway. Back to what I was talking about. I was told tonight I was liked.
More than liked. More than he wants to admit I believe.
However.
That dosen't seem to matter.
It dosen't matter if you'd do anything for one person if you can't see them right?
RIGHT?
Fuck.
Tell me thats the way it works so I can sleep more soundly at night.
I will never win because thats not how its planned out to be.

I'll never fucking win.
I still fucking love you.
 I STILL FUCKING LOVE YOU. And look at what you're doing to me? What the FUCK. WHY DO I DESEREVE THIS SHIT?? why would you do this to me? why would you come back into my life to desory me? Does it help you sleep at night knowing that you control me?
Well control me all you will. As long as it helps you sleep.

I wish I could sleep more like you.