thinking for myself...with three or four shots of espresso in my system
insomnia strikes again...zzz. i have not been sleeping well. either i cannot get comfortable, i cannot fall asleep, i cannot stay asleep, or i toss and turn and toss and turn and toss and turn (etc).
i just cannot wait for the next three weeks to pass. let this semester be done with. i'll take two weeks off and a fresh start. and then...i will have two years left. but we're notthinkingaboutthatjustyet.
there is caffeine or copious amounts of sugar in my system yet even without it i'm this...bundle of energy. i need to go for a run but it's raining and about 35 degrees outside. besides, running tends to make me anxious. my mind has been tricked into thinking that if my heart pounds, i must be dying. lovely, eh?
and my step-brother is in iraq with a concussion and my parents are understandably upset because they've been misinformed twice in the past three days and the news keeps getting worse. and again i say THANK YOU to all the Bush supporters for re-electing him so that well over 20,000 iraqi civilians are dead...in the name of...what's that term again...oh yeah, Democracy. and THANK YOU to all of the military recruiters for brainwashing this country's impoverished youth into thinking they can be goddamn american heroes with the guns you put in their hands (meanwhile their blown up body parts are being shipped backed to their unsuspecting families in droves). (and if yr reading this and don't get my facetiousness, scroll down a couple of entries). it's just wrong how they take control of all of these lives.
and it's lightning...and now it is thundering outside. it's november, correct? the midwest?
more news. none of it good.
i feel antagonistically anarchist and unapologetic. the so-called freedom that this country gives sickeningly sweet lip-service to has so many unwritten conditions it's ridiculous. and i don't think there is one big-name politician who can see beyond his own two feet.
what's even more asinine is bush's "Nothing less than victory" rhetoric. victory for whom?? c'mon bush, what's yr real agenda. -or can't you admit that yr too much of a brain-dead, brown-nosing, daddy's boy whose interests can't extend beyond money and power to accomplish anything worthwhile to the citizens you claim to be fighting for? i'd go into politics myself if i had less of a soul. because isn't that all it really takes, bush sr.? -money and a soulless, manipulative, fascist ? and i refuse to dignify their beings by acknowledging them by the title "president".
and why isn't there a journalist with a backbone? why isn't there a journalist out there that can take a risk and stand up and ask the questions we really want asked? why isn't there someone with power who will stand up and hold those sons of dicks accountable for their bullshit?
"Iraqi Prime Minister Nuri al-Maliki Sunday characterized the situation in Iraq as a "political crisis" and said politicians are the only ones who can stop the further security deterioration and bloodshed of innocent people.
There is no hope to save Iraq and stop the bloodbath unless politicians "realize there are no winners or losers in this battle," he said, speaking to reporters at the Political Council for the National Security."
Send the bush administration to Anbar, let them be surrounded by and shot at by insurgents - they have no. fucking. clue. they're playing with millions of peoples lives like it's a petty video game. the question is: will sending them end this ridiculous war? because hey, if it will, by all means. it's a lesser sacrifice than all the innocent iraqi lives that are still at risk.
and if our own political leaders don't want to be there, why should anyone else. -wait, i know. out of fear of another attack...fear which is instilled by the media... which is pressured by the american government? (see how those pieces fit together?) If that isn't the textbook description of terrorism, i'd love to hear a better one.
"what if the enemey
isn't in a distant land
what if the enemy lies behind
the voice in command
the sound of war
is a child's cry
behind tinted windows,
they just drive by
all i know is that those
who are going to be killed
aren't those who preside
on capitol hill
i told him,
don't fill the front lines
of their war
those assholes aren't worth dying for" ~Ani- Roll With It
i just cannot wait for the next three weeks to pass. let this semester be done with. i'll take two weeks off and a fresh start. and then...i will have two years left. but we're notthinkingaboutthatjustyet.
there is caffeine or copious amounts of sugar in my system yet even without it i'm this...bundle of energy. i need to go for a run but it's raining and about 35 degrees outside. besides, running tends to make me anxious. my mind has been tricked into thinking that if my heart pounds, i must be dying. lovely, eh?
and my step-brother is in iraq with a concussion and my parents are understandably upset because they've been misinformed twice in the past three days and the news keeps getting worse. and again i say THANK YOU to all the Bush supporters for re-electing him so that well over 20,000 iraqi civilians are dead...in the name of...what's that term again...oh yeah, Democracy. and THANK YOU to all of the military recruiters for brainwashing this country's impoverished youth into thinking they can be goddamn american heroes with the guns you put in their hands (meanwhile their blown up body parts are being shipped backed to their unsuspecting families in droves). (and if yr reading this and don't get my facetiousness, scroll down a couple of entries). it's just wrong how they take control of all of these lives.
and it's lightning...and now it is thundering outside. it's november, correct? the midwest?
more news. none of it good.
i feel antagonistically anarchist and unapologetic. the so-called freedom that this country gives sickeningly sweet lip-service to has so many unwritten conditions it's ridiculous. and i don't think there is one big-name politician who can see beyond his own two feet.
what's even more asinine is bush's "Nothing less than victory" rhetoric. victory for whom?? c'mon bush, what's yr real agenda. -or can't you admit that yr too much of a brain-dead, brown-nosing, daddy's boy whose interests can't extend beyond money and power to accomplish anything worthwhile to the citizens you claim to be fighting for? i'd go into politics myself if i had less of a soul. because isn't that all it really takes, bush sr.? -money and a soulless, manipulative, fascist ? and i refuse to dignify their beings by acknowledging them by the title "president".
and why isn't there a journalist with a backbone? why isn't there a journalist out there that can take a risk and stand up and ask the questions we really want asked? why isn't there someone with power who will stand up and hold those sons of dicks accountable for their bullshit?
"Iraqi Prime Minister Nuri al-Maliki Sunday characterized the situation in Iraq as a "political crisis" and said politicians are the only ones who can stop the further security deterioration and bloodshed of innocent people.
There is no hope to save Iraq and stop the bloodbath unless politicians "realize there are no winners or losers in this battle," he said, speaking to reporters at the Political Council for the National Security."
Send the bush administration to Anbar, let them be surrounded by and shot at by insurgents - they have no. fucking. clue. they're playing with millions of peoples lives like it's a petty video game. the question is: will sending them end this ridiculous war? because hey, if it will, by all means. it's a lesser sacrifice than all the innocent iraqi lives that are still at risk.
and if our own political leaders don't want to be there, why should anyone else. -wait, i know. out of fear of another attack...fear which is instilled by the media... which is pressured by the american government? (see how those pieces fit together?) If that isn't the textbook description of terrorism, i'd love to hear a better one.
"what if the enemey
isn't in a distant land
what if the enemy lies behind
the voice in command
the sound of war
is a child's cry
behind tinted windows,
they just drive by
all i know is that those
who are going to be killed
aren't those who preside
on capitol hill
i told him,
don't fill the front lines
of their war
those assholes aren't worth dying for" ~Ani- Roll With It