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so I haven't updated this journal in the past 8 months. a lot has happened but it's not like anyone reads this anyway. i'm pissed at a lot of people right now because they're liars and are just a waste of my time. i've become sick of having to help everyone and having to be the shoulder everyone cries on. my shoulder is soaked and can't take anymore tears. no one ever gives me a shoulder to lean on and every time they do they turn around and everything becomes about them. my problems turn into their problems. i never use myself when helping someone else, i just use helpful words, i never say well when he did this and this to me i did this, no, i say if he's going to something like that to you then fuck him. why can't people be helpful with me? i'm so sick of being me and being helpful. screw everyone who claims to be my friends because i've come to realize that i only have two true and dear friends. one of them being my mom. the other one i've known since the 6th grade and she's been the only one who hasn't betrayed me in any way what so ever. and screw the person who used me every time he had no one else to run to or no one who would listen to everything he had to say about himself. so since he doesn't want to talk to me or call me and says that i could call him as well screw him. he'd rather go hang out with drunks and stupid people who do nothing but throw their lives away on a weekly basis. if i have to deal with someone like that then i might as well let them go. screw him, screw them, screw all of you, i'm going out with one of the only people who i can consider my friend and it's not my mom, so i'm going to go get ready and do something fun with her.