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so i realize that i'm being known as a mean person....well i can show you mean. do you know what really hurts, when people compare others to you according to the way you act in a negative way. i can't believe bruce said that sarah was treating him "the way ashley does". what the crap?! i've never treated bruce wrong a day in my life, if i did than he brought it upon himself.
so here's a list of people i'm not speaking to tomorrow and for who knows how long:
ALL GUYS UNDER THE AGE OF 18 WHO ARE INCONSIDERATE OF OTHER PEOPLE.
sarah's going goth for the day but as for me......i think i'll just be mean to prove how mean i can be. i'm giving push ups out of the wazoo and people are getting very evil words from me today. ya know what's also funny? how people have the nerve to sit there and call me mean but i'm the last person who'll turn you away if you need ANYTHING. if you need money for a reasonable cause and i have it, i'll give it to you and sometimes i won't even make you pay it back unless i seriously need it. if people need someone to talk to, I'M THERE, I'LL FUCKING LISTEN, I'LL HELP YOU. i'm a very concerned person for people who look upset. now does that sound a fucking person who's mean and hateful? i didn't know mean and hateful people acted that way, hmm what a huge surprise. well then i'll start being extremely nice if that's mean. i won't loan money to anyone, i'll ignore everyone, and not care about anything or anyone anymore. does that make you happy?
hmm so let's talk about more positive things.....wait i'm a mean person i don't think i have anything positive to say....
my sister is being threatened to have her fucking children taken away, so do you know what the hell that means?! i have to work MORE hours at Taco Bell to be able to support those kids while my mom supports my sister and I cuz she can't care for 3 teens and a baby at the same time. my dad is disabled, and i have school so where does that leave us? i will have NO time for anything and will end up taking my baby nephew everywhere as if he's my damn child. i LOVE my babies but i have school in which i have mainly AP classes, band which will mean if he wakes up in the morning than i'll be late everyday and i'll have to wake MY younger up to take care of him, oh i also have work which will take up my afternoons and weekends. when am i supposed to have Ashley time? or dork time? or just time away from home? i won't.
so don't you just love it when you have to worry about having to work more hours at work to take care of the children you love and then struggle with school? hmm i know i sure do! yea right i fucking hate life and everyone makes me fucking sick. people need to grow up and realize the things that are sitting right in their face, just like i'm sitting in kyle's face but does he even give me the time of day....no.
we were supposed to go to the movies monday afternoon but no he says "his stomach hurts" but then he turns around and calls sarah to find out what she's doing. now you know what? i know for a fact that if she weren't at leighanne's that he would've gone over to her house and his stomach would not be aching. he treats me so damn bad i hate him so much right now, he doesn't even understand the hate i have for him in my heart right now. usually i say "he's so sexy" "he's my baby" and even "i love him" to my friends but nope not today i don't think i said anything of those things except that i wanted to punch him in his face and i could do it, but i have a committment to the band and i can't get kicked out or suspended under any mean necessary.
for anyone who read this i'm sorry you had to read so much but this was basically my day......
so here's a list of people i'm not speaking to tomorrow and for who knows how long:
ALL GUYS UNDER THE AGE OF 18 WHO ARE INCONSIDERATE OF OTHER PEOPLE.
sarah's going goth for the day but as for me......i think i'll just be mean to prove how mean i can be. i'm giving push ups out of the wazoo and people are getting very evil words from me today. ya know what's also funny? how people have the nerve to sit there and call me mean but i'm the last person who'll turn you away if you need ANYTHING. if you need money for a reasonable cause and i have it, i'll give it to you and sometimes i won't even make you pay it back unless i seriously need it. if people need someone to talk to, I'M THERE, I'LL FUCKING LISTEN, I'LL HELP YOU. i'm a very concerned person for people who look upset. now does that sound a fucking person who's mean and hateful? i didn't know mean and hateful people acted that way, hmm what a huge surprise. well then i'll start being extremely nice if that's mean. i won't loan money to anyone, i'll ignore everyone, and not care about anything or anyone anymore. does that make you happy?
hmm so let's talk about more positive things.....wait i'm a mean person i don't think i have anything positive to say....
my sister is being threatened to have her fucking children taken away, so do you know what the hell that means?! i have to work MORE hours at Taco Bell to be able to support those kids while my mom supports my sister and I cuz she can't care for 3 teens and a baby at the same time. my dad is disabled, and i have school so where does that leave us? i will have NO time for anything and will end up taking my baby nephew everywhere as if he's my damn child. i LOVE my babies but i have school in which i have mainly AP classes, band which will mean if he wakes up in the morning than i'll be late everyday and i'll have to wake MY younger up to take care of him, oh i also have work which will take up my afternoons and weekends. when am i supposed to have Ashley time? or dork time? or just time away from home? i won't.
so don't you just love it when you have to worry about having to work more hours at work to take care of the children you love and then struggle with school? hmm i know i sure do! yea right i fucking hate life and everyone makes me fucking sick. people need to grow up and realize the things that are sitting right in their face, just like i'm sitting in kyle's face but does he even give me the time of day....no.
we were supposed to go to the movies monday afternoon but no he says "his stomach hurts" but then he turns around and calls sarah to find out what she's doing. now you know what? i know for a fact that if she weren't at leighanne's that he would've gone over to her house and his stomach would not be aching. he treats me so damn bad i hate him so much right now, he doesn't even understand the hate i have for him in my heart right now. usually i say "he's so sexy" "he's my baby" and even "i love him" to my friends but nope not today i don't think i said anything of those things except that i wanted to punch him in his face and i could do it, but i have a committment to the band and i can't get kicked out or suspended under any mean necessary.
for anyone who read this i'm sorry you had to read so much but this was basically my day......