today was so BLAH. like, the way the great plains would feel on downhill skis. i'm happy though. my self esteem has been shot down and my feelings have probably been hurt, i havn't decided yet, and winter is such a drag. but DESPITE all the BLAH things that happen, i wnat to laugh and run around naked with those long flowing dance ribbon things. yeah, it has a little to do with romantic fellings. on both sides of the spectrum. i've let myself free, and each time it gets easier and easier. i know it wont even phase me soon. check this out: