Another emo entry
I got back a paper from my Early Education class that I thought I did well on.
6/10. Awesome.
I was talking to Jess and I honestly feel this way. I feel so bad because I want to get A's and stuff. I feel like I'm not capable of them anymore. Like the paper I got back. I tried really really hard, for what, a 60? Yeah it was last minute, but it was the best I could have done. I just want to give up. It's hard to go on when you haven't gotten a 90 YET. It's like when I get B's I'm happy, but inside I really wish I knew what it would take to get a B+, A-, or mainly an A because B is so generic. When I don't even get B's, I realize that B's are basically the highest I can achieve right now. I know I shouldn't set myself short, but I got back 4 papers so far: B, B, B, and that fucking 60. It makes me think that a B is all I'm capable of,since half of those papers i worked my ass off in, and the other half I didnt and still get the same lousy B. If I got B+'s when I worked hard I might continue to..but when you get the same grade regardless..or less than a B if you REALLY suck like me, as I seemed to have on this last paper paper, you can't help but feel hopeless before you dust yourself off AGAIN. It's so daunting.
I feel like shit. I don't even have an ease-back class to give me a solid A. I feel horrible. Please write back with some love.