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[quesohelado]

So, this summer break has been interesting so far. Vacations and trips aside, it's just been a different feeling. I haven't had any overbearing work to do or any scheduled stuff except for work on thursdays and fridays. That's been really nice. I've also come to a few realizations. The biggest is that I really can only take so much of certain things (like my other post about vacationing). The big thing, though, is working with disabled kids. Having it consume my entire life, I've kind of gotten my fill and will continue to do so for the rest of my life. So, I'm not quite sure that babysitting a kid with special needs was a good idea for me, especially given that I now have to take him to a program with about 15 others who I have to keep in line while being one-on-one with the kid I babysit. I just don't enjoy it. I mean, it's all "fufilling" and all that, but I live that every day of my life. I just don't think that this particular aspect of care-taking is something that is right for me. I just don't have the patience for it. It's not that I don't like the kids or anything like that, it's just that I have a hard time being in this situation when I only have the same situation to look forward to when I get home. It's just a bit too much for me. I mean, it's been 100% all the time since I was 5, so it's not like I can go home and escape it, that's where it is in full force. I can only get out to have some time away from the stress and such, and when my outings are consumed by it as well, it's just too hard for me... so, that's my revelation for the day.

on a lighter note, I recorded some songs and riffs that I've written using my computer to record and my guitar and voice to make "music." I like the way I put it together, too. It's fun. So that made me happy on Tuesday. Anneliese came over yesterday and that was really really really really really really really really nice. I needed a good break again. So... yep. That's all I have to say about that.