Fuck you Cosmo and MTV
Holy crap college is almost done!
Yea, bitches!
It's funny to think back on how much I've changed these past four years. I remember talking to high school kids who couldn't wait to leave home and get away from their parents. But I loved hanging out at home. I loved going everywhere with my parents. I didn't have very many friends in school so my parents were who I spent most of my time with and they were hella cool. Seriously. First year of college fucked with my self esteem because there were too many pretty girls on grounds and nowhere I could hide from meeting new people like I used to in high school. I really thing the biggest thing to come out of college for me is becoming comfortable with myself. I can never explain to people how deteriorating my self esteem was to pretty much anything I wanted to do. I think I would have been in a much much much different place had I more been more confident in middle and high school. But really, learning to accept things about me is really the only significant thing to happen to me in college. I really didn't achieve anything spectacular academically speaking. No medals or trophies. If I had started college being more sure of myself I think I would have done better. I would have searched out more opportunities. I know first and second year the way I looked and felt kept me from doing a lot of things...mainly going to class...which is crucial to learn. But I'm glad I like myself now. I could careless what I look like.
I realize a lot of my posts/stuff I talk about is about how I look and self esteem issues
but it seriously consumed my life in high school. It was disgustingly debilitating.
Fuck you Cosmo and MTV!
Yea, bitches!
It's funny to think back on how much I've changed these past four years. I remember talking to high school kids who couldn't wait to leave home and get away from their parents. But I loved hanging out at home. I loved going everywhere with my parents. I didn't have very many friends in school so my parents were who I spent most of my time with and they were hella cool. Seriously. First year of college fucked with my self esteem because there were too many pretty girls on grounds and nowhere I could hide from meeting new people like I used to in high school. I really thing the biggest thing to come out of college for me is becoming comfortable with myself. I can never explain to people how deteriorating my self esteem was to pretty much anything I wanted to do. I think I would have been in a much much much different place had I more been more confident in middle and high school. But really, learning to accept things about me is really the only significant thing to happen to me in college. I really didn't achieve anything spectacular academically speaking. No medals or trophies. If I had started college being more sure of myself I think I would have done better. I would have searched out more opportunities. I know first and second year the way I looked and felt kept me from doing a lot of things...mainly going to class...which is crucial to learn. But I'm glad I like myself now. I could careless what I look like.
I realize a lot of my posts/stuff I talk about is about how I look and self esteem issues
but it seriously consumed my life in high school. It was disgustingly debilitating.
Fuck you Cosmo and MTV!