it's 1 in the morning and I'm drunkagain
It sounds like a song. Went out for xmas meal wiht rotaract. was appallingly drunk hugged, apologised. Tried to rescue attractive girl (friend of mine) from heartbreak kid (guy who's just broken up with girl). he had a bit of thing for me too I think.
I said several somewhat blunt things to HR and her boyf (definatly boyf after this evening serious sucking face going on, altho not all evening). stuff like it's a pain having a best mate whos dating. But that he's nice and I like him and he's nice. And so on. Made SA dance even though my attraction to him was at an all time low, also planecrasher. And while I felt sad mysteriously watching planecrasher and shy lil one being touchyfeely I want it to work out for them. I want to not feel like I ruined planecrashers life. And eventually I want to find someone else for me. The attractive girl...she asked me about my ideal man. I couldn't answer too drunk. but I wasn't in the mood to flirt then
I felt love brotherly love for everyone from SA onwards although the cute south african bar man could have been an exception. But I went past it. I'm tired of rescuing people from guys they don't want (attractive girl is already dating) I'm tired of being gooseberry, done that already with bubblegum. I'm tired. I'm going to bed
I hoped feather would be online. she must be being good for once
love you all
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I said several somewhat blunt things to HR and her boyf (definatly boyf after this evening serious sucking face going on, altho not all evening). stuff like it's a pain having a best mate whos dating. But that he's nice and I like him and he's nice. And so on. Made SA dance even though my attraction to him was at an all time low, also planecrasher. And while I felt sad mysteriously watching planecrasher and shy lil one being touchyfeely I want it to work out for them. I want to not feel like I ruined planecrashers life. And eventually I want to find someone else for me. The attractive girl...she asked me about my ideal man. I couldn't answer too drunk. but I wasn't in the mood to flirt then
I felt love brotherly love for everyone from SA onwards although the cute south african bar man could have been an exception. But I went past it. I'm tired of rescuing people from guys they don't want (attractive girl is already dating) I'm tired of being gooseberry, done that already with bubblegum. I'm tired. I'm going to bed
I hoped feather would be online. she must be being good for once
love you all
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