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what the hell?
again, my cell phone bill is right at $100.00.
I can't win.
I have $86.00 TO LIVE ON. that's not by the end of this month btw. that's every month. every month it's pick a bill not to pay...so that I can afford food and gas. and then play catch up and put utilities on credit cards so they're not shut off. what the hell am I doing with internet? I can't afford it.
good old fashioned hard work huh? what the hell. what the fucking hell. my second job is paying for food. and actually it's not, because the place is taking so fucking long to pay us.
there aren't words accurate enough. I'm too upset to think my way out of this...oh, yeah, I have ideas..one Idea I'd really like to see if it works. but I'm not sure I can tread water long enough to find out. right now though...
I want to scream. I want to weep.