Want
Sometimes life bites you in the butt. This particular week life had razor sharp teeth and left me hobbling about wondering what the hell just happened.
So much of misery revolves around statements starting with the words "I want". I thought I was doing fine accepting life as it is. Turns out I had a lot of "I want" statements lurking around in my head... hiding behind the doors in my mind. I wanted to have it be a normal week with no surprises... but life bit me on the butt and surprised me anyway. Most of my misery involved me not getting what I wanted. I wanted to fence lots this week. I wanted to feel well and fulfill my commitments. That wasn't what happened though. I ended my week by getting angry and stomping around the house. So I took a break... had some good food and relaxed in front of the TV for a while.
I feel a bit better.
I'm ready to play piano and finish preparing for a concert put on by my piano teacher. Tomorrow I'm going to play a couple of pieces. I've been practicing a lot in the hopes that I will play well. Even so... I may not get what I want.
So much of misery revolves around statements starting with the words "I want". I thought I was doing fine accepting life as it is. Turns out I had a lot of "I want" statements lurking around in my head... hiding behind the doors in my mind. I wanted to have it be a normal week with no surprises... but life bit me on the butt and surprised me anyway. Most of my misery involved me not getting what I wanted. I wanted to fence lots this week. I wanted to feel well and fulfill my commitments. That wasn't what happened though. I ended my week by getting angry and stomping around the house. So I took a break... had some good food and relaxed in front of the TV for a while.
I feel a bit better.
I'm ready to play piano and finish preparing for a concert put on by my piano teacher. Tomorrow I'm going to play a couple of pieces. I've been practicing a lot in the hopes that I will play well. Even so... I may not get what I want.