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No one reads this anymore so i'll update cause im cool like that.
I'm sad. I feel I get a right to complain because I am never sad, and for once in my life BOY GEE WIZ i am sad.
I guess it just feels like all my friends are drifting away from me and it is completely my fault. I have had so many amazing friends and in the past like month, they're all suddenly gone. It makes me feel awful. I guess it just hasnt been a really great couple of weeks. I mean Andrew is amazing. I am so happy when I'm with him, but there are other parts of my life that I guess Im afraid to tell people. Ho hum, im a loser and we all know it. Its probably why all my friends left. Damn pessimistic or overly optimisic me. I need to find a medium where im not so fucking hyper all the time, and when im not all bubbly, im just a bitch. I'm sorry everyone whom I have pissed off in the past or right now or whenever, cause I know myself that I am a shitty person, alas, I dont know what to do. I'm kinda hoping someone knows what I should do, but I dont know what to say. Its hard to make sense of why im sad, or what i can do to fix it. Well i'm really sorry for doing my shitty rant thing, and in the future someone please slap me if i get like this.
No one reads this, I'm not expecting comments, just wanted to get some stuff off my chest.
I'm sad. I feel I get a right to complain because I am never sad, and for once in my life BOY GEE WIZ i am sad.
I guess it just feels like all my friends are drifting away from me and it is completely my fault. I have had so many amazing friends and in the past like month, they're all suddenly gone. It makes me feel awful. I guess it just hasnt been a really great couple of weeks. I mean Andrew is amazing. I am so happy when I'm with him, but there are other parts of my life that I guess Im afraid to tell people. Ho hum, im a loser and we all know it. Its probably why all my friends left. Damn pessimistic or overly optimisic me. I need to find a medium where im not so fucking hyper all the time, and when im not all bubbly, im just a bitch. I'm sorry everyone whom I have pissed off in the past or right now or whenever, cause I know myself that I am a shitty person, alas, I dont know what to do. I'm kinda hoping someone knows what I should do, but I dont know what to say. Its hard to make sense of why im sad, or what i can do to fix it. Well i'm really sorry for doing my shitty rant thing, and in the future someone please slap me if i get like this.
No one reads this, I'm not expecting comments, just wanted to get some stuff off my chest.