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I know it’s been forever. I’m doing well, a little sick today. I’m finally setting up my apartment the way I want it. It’s feeling good and more settled. It needs a little more me in there. I’m working on it.
Mostly I wanted to update to say that I’m missing my friends and I’m totally squishy for my boyfriend.
I’m really struggling with making friends here in seattle. I’m not sure what that’s about but it seems that I’m not the only one. I’ve been talking to different friends around the country and it feels good to be reminded by I can connect with people and what friendship means to me. I’ve made a smattering of friend here in seattle but they’re pretty surface, not the deep kind of intimacy that I really want and need from friendships. So I know I’m not alone but someone it feels hard to connect. It’s funny because seattle is meeting my needs in most other ways, romantically, sexually, work wise, but socially I’m struggling. Denver felt like the opposite. I loved my friends and social networks in Denver but job wise and romantically it just wasn’t working. Mostly I’ve just been sitting with that and taking it from there.
I’ve feeling really squishy about Danny these days. He’s so great and present and we have some really nice sexy times. He continually shows up and I don’t know how else to describe except to say that he’s just a really good boyfriend.
Mostly I wanted to update to say that I’m missing my friends and I’m totally squishy for my boyfriend.
I’m really struggling with making friends here in seattle. I’m not sure what that’s about but it seems that I’m not the only one. I’ve been talking to different friends around the country and it feels good to be reminded by I can connect with people and what friendship means to me. I’ve made a smattering of friend here in seattle but they’re pretty surface, not the deep kind of intimacy that I really want and need from friendships. So I know I’m not alone but someone it feels hard to connect. It’s funny because seattle is meeting my needs in most other ways, romantically, sexually, work wise, but socially I’m struggling. Denver felt like the opposite. I loved my friends and social networks in Denver but job wise and romantically it just wasn’t working. Mostly I’ve just been sitting with that and taking it from there.
I’ve feeling really squishy about Danny these days. He’s so great and present and we have some really nice sexy times. He continually shows up and I don’t know how else to describe except to say that he’s just a really good boyfriend.