A lot of time has passed
Well lets start off with Hi. I have been away from the computer for so long, and finally have the time to write. Um here is a little update, i have finished the program at grafton career development center. I just recently started working, nothing much but for now it helps get me money. Also i have been staying with my mom in NP. I luv being back home and away from my past. I have however taken somethings with me from my past, such as my friends that i will never forget, tammy, christina, rochelle, thia, i think those are the main ones. There is only one regret at my stay at grafton for those long 9 months, was my relationship that quickly diminished. I am sorry to say that if i could start that over i would never had met that person what was his name, i don't know. I have had a very good time back home. Getting drunk i think at least once with my brother, and getting stoned. oh to all my peeps at job corps, you dont know what you are missing.
To My Friends
I miss you guys and i think of all the things that i went through, the drama of boyfriends, and also the wonderful things to that i will take with me forever. I can't wait till i see you guys on the first, i think i will cry.
Sometimes i wish that i could go back
Now that i am at home, and sometimes with nothing to do, i wish that i could go back to job corps, i know that it sounds crazy, but i had mhy friends there. To tammy and kistina Hand in there i read you live journal and it is kind of depressing. I am sure that tammy will do the right thing and stick with it. I miss seeing you guys everyday, even though it got kind of old. i miss it now. An thia just wondering how are things, i hope that you are well and that you are focused. And to rochelle, i hope that your family and as well as yourself are doing good. i miss hearing you laugh. Kristina i miss pooking you, i just want to apologize for all the things mean things that i have done to you in the past. you are a true friend, and never give up. I also miss Miss Paine, she was like my mom at job corps, she is a true person and i see now that she only wants the best for everyone at jc. To all my friend's, i dont think that i could have done it with out you guys.
home sweet home
Well things at home are really shakey, like my mom is just going through a time in her life that she needs someone there. She hates her job, and how wouldnt if everyday some guys was commenting on your tits. And she just wants things to go good. For some reason she is losing her memory like not to dramatic, but like enough to where she doenst remember conversations that she had or things that she has done like the preveous day. I Just dont know what i would do without her. i don't want to think of the future because it makes me cry. I don't think that i could handle sheing her in a wheel chair and needing somone to assist her, and seeing her sitting there helpless. I always pictured my mom as independent, and strong, but now that is slowly diminishing because she is becoming more and more dependent on me. I luv my mom, and i dont want to lose her. She also would love to move to california, to live with my uncle and who wouldn't, he would take good care of her. I feel bAD because the only times she gets to see him is around christmas time, and sometimes she doesnt get that. But if my mom was to move to california, i would go with her.
Drama
I started working and this gay kid works there. I can't stand him because he thinks that he is gods gift to man. like he i just the best thing out there and is to good for everyone. He got made at me because someone else to him that i was better looking than he was, and that i was going to get all the attention now that i work there. Well he got mad and well lets just say he was really gay before i worked there and now he had switched it into overdrive. like it is crazy how gay this kid is and he is only 17, One thing that i could say bout tyrone is that he wasnt flammy that much, but this kid is over the top, and he doesnt like me.
Also the friends that i have back home or in a HATE Josh kick. like alisha, she likes to talk a lot of shit, and now that i am back she decideds to like cover her ass with her "boyfriend" soon to be ex, by putting blame on me, thats fucked up. And it is about stupid shit. My friend angelina is like the only one that i dont have a problem with. Mike on the other hand is i guess mad at me, he let me have his cell phone, and i used it, i downloaded a lot of stuff on it, but no way does it add up to 600 dollars. well he decides to come into my work and make a scene, so i gave him his phone back, and if he thinks that i am going to pay for it without seeing a bill he is crazy. i think that he is trying to get money out of me so that he can pay some of his high costing bills. i dont know.
Well i had fun writing and updating, and it will be awhile before i can write again, but i luv you all and have a good life.
To My Friends
I miss you guys and i think of all the things that i went through, the drama of boyfriends, and also the wonderful things to that i will take with me forever. I can't wait till i see you guys on the first, i think i will cry.
Sometimes i wish that i could go back
Now that i am at home, and sometimes with nothing to do, i wish that i could go back to job corps, i know that it sounds crazy, but i had mhy friends there. To tammy and kistina Hand in there i read you live journal and it is kind of depressing. I am sure that tammy will do the right thing and stick with it. I miss seeing you guys everyday, even though it got kind of old. i miss it now. An thia just wondering how are things, i hope that you are well and that you are focused. And to rochelle, i hope that your family and as well as yourself are doing good. i miss hearing you laugh. Kristina i miss pooking you, i just want to apologize for all the things mean things that i have done to you in the past. you are a true friend, and never give up. I also miss Miss Paine, she was like my mom at job corps, she is a true person and i see now that she only wants the best for everyone at jc. To all my friend's, i dont think that i could have done it with out you guys.
home sweet home
Well things at home are really shakey, like my mom is just going through a time in her life that she needs someone there. She hates her job, and how wouldnt if everyday some guys was commenting on your tits. And she just wants things to go good. For some reason she is losing her memory like not to dramatic, but like enough to where she doenst remember conversations that she had or things that she has done like the preveous day. I Just dont know what i would do without her. i don't want to think of the future because it makes me cry. I don't think that i could handle sheing her in a wheel chair and needing somone to assist her, and seeing her sitting there helpless. I always pictured my mom as independent, and strong, but now that is slowly diminishing because she is becoming more and more dependent on me. I luv my mom, and i dont want to lose her. She also would love to move to california, to live with my uncle and who wouldn't, he would take good care of her. I feel bAD because the only times she gets to see him is around christmas time, and sometimes she doesnt get that. But if my mom was to move to california, i would go with her.
Drama
I started working and this gay kid works there. I can't stand him because he thinks that he is gods gift to man. like he i just the best thing out there and is to good for everyone. He got made at me because someone else to him that i was better looking than he was, and that i was going to get all the attention now that i work there. Well he got mad and well lets just say he was really gay before i worked there and now he had switched it into overdrive. like it is crazy how gay this kid is and he is only 17, One thing that i could say bout tyrone is that he wasnt flammy that much, but this kid is over the top, and he doesnt like me.
Also the friends that i have back home or in a HATE Josh kick. like alisha, she likes to talk a lot of shit, and now that i am back she decideds to like cover her ass with her "boyfriend" soon to be ex, by putting blame on me, thats fucked up. And it is about stupid shit. My friend angelina is like the only one that i dont have a problem with. Mike on the other hand is i guess mad at me, he let me have his cell phone, and i used it, i downloaded a lot of stuff on it, but no way does it add up to 600 dollars. well he decides to come into my work and make a scene, so i gave him his phone back, and if he thinks that i am going to pay for it without seeing a bill he is crazy. i think that he is trying to get money out of me so that he can pay some of his high costing bills. i dont know.
Well i had fun writing and updating, and it will be awhile before i can write again, but i luv you all and have a good life.