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i want the sun back but i dont want 90 plus degreess i want the sun and blue skys and about 78 degress... i want to lay in the grass and read dorthy allison... GAY yes i know... but i am fucking gay....
i want to remember things from my past.... i talked to my counselor about this on monday.... i dont really remember things unless someone brings them up.... its like i dont have memories of my own but i do... they are in there....
i want to be in delores park with amelia eating olive bread and talking for hours like we do... she is closet thing to a best friend that i have had in years.
i want to change my hair bad.......
i want to feel and be raw and be honest no matter how fucking hard it is...
i want to frogive ... more specifically i want to forgive E ..... there are periods of time i can .... and i love her so deeply but other times where it just hurts to fucking much and i just cant... i go back and forth
i want coffee and i want friends around me...
i want the bluffs and cheese
random.... but im stuck in my office right now and all i can think about is breakin free
i want to remember things from my past.... i talked to my counselor about this on monday.... i dont really remember things unless someone brings them up.... its like i dont have memories of my own but i do... they are in there....
i want to be in delores park with amelia eating olive bread and talking for hours like we do... she is closet thing to a best friend that i have had in years.
i want to change my hair bad.......
i want to feel and be raw and be honest no matter how fucking hard it is...
i want to frogive ... more specifically i want to forgive E ..... there are periods of time i can .... and i love her so deeply but other times where it just hurts to fucking much and i just cant... i go back and forth
i want coffee and i want friends around me...
i want the bluffs and cheese
random.... but im stuck in my office right now and all i can think about is breakin free