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i caught myself scrounging up jon's old phone numbers and doing a reverse phone number check online to find his address. he's moved away but i have his grandparents number and address. i called and lost my nerve and hung up. i dont know why im doing this. im happy with the way things are but im still in love with a memory. im positive im about to fuck things up but its like i dont care what happens. i just want to know hes ok and maybe even just to tell him that im sorry. damn me for being so naive