Dear God letters (2nd installment)
ok, time for the 2nd letter. i hope y'all enjoyed the first one. i know Denny and Bess did. first a little tidbit about tonight. went to the Armorettes at Burkhart's with Caleb (from old YouthPride) and this dude started talking to me. i've made a concerted effort lately not to be a slut, and i've done REALLY well...that is, until tonight...i hooked up with a dude that couldn't even remember my name. i was leaving and i was like "yeah, it's Rick, by the way" he thought it was Jeff or James. yeah, not even close. he does seem like a sweet guy.
June 28, 2000 1:48 a.m.
Dear God,
Once again I'm writing after the clock has struck twelve. I just talked to Andy. Maybe it's cuz we like each other, but I always seem to feel uneasy talking to him. I want to match his voice, a timid and shy one, with his body which doesn't really fit. hmm maybe cuz in the only pic that I've seen of him He doesn't seem shy at all. gosh I don't know what I would do if I met him. I'd really like to hug and kiss him for life ever. I would be able to control myself, right. Yes, I know Father Tim said it's for marriage but he said he thought that b/c he's conservative. An "R" [Republican] as Casey would say. I remember when I was labeled an "R" last year and I remember when Val had trouble going through the alphabet and eliminating "R." I wonder where my brother is. He took the car (yes again). I don't want to lose faith in my brother. I really don't, but you know he's done this soooo many times b4. At least I don't have work tomorrow, but my mom does and Billy might prevent her from getting there. Shame on him. I realy hope he comes to Church on August 13th in remembrance of Papa and Daddy. Yuck! I'm peeling. Now to talk about Dogma. I don't see why Dave got all worked up. Of course, I'm really one to talk seeing as I get worked up over stupid stuff, too, like Britney Spears. Anyways, I learned from Billy that Kevin Smith the writer/creator guy is Catholic and went to Catholic school K-12th so most of the stuff well make that some of the stuff was accurate. It was just a bit exaggerated. It did have references to gayness like all the moves I've seen. Hmm America's new secret obsession. The cussing was a bit much. I wonder if these "memoirs" will be made into a book one day. It would have to be made posthumously, of course cuz I'd die if anyone read this. It holds all my skeletons in the closet. (Sigh) I'm [word I can't understand, looks like "hot"] and a nobody. Who would want to read my story? People, teens, just like me, that's who. people with the same struggles like Andy. I sure hope my mom didn't read I mean look up that site about NARTH she is a little too nosy for her own good. Well as long as she never and I mean NEVER confronts me about it I think I'll be all right. I talked to Elizabeth Elliott today. As part of my duty as Secretary of NHS, I have to bring in a snack for 37 people on Thursday, August 11th. I hope I'm a good secretary. I wonder a lot how I get myself into these things. Am I stretched too thinly. Please, God, give me the strength to make it through senior year. Ugh, I'm reminded of summer reading. What a drag! Well you know I'm gonna procrastinate. I guess the least I could do is buy the books. At least no reports except for Religion. At least w/ reports It's concrete. It's always about the concrete, isn't it. These are some wise words. I love that who battle between flesh and spirit, concrete and abstract, yada yada yada (Good Seinfeld.) Elaine was my favorite character. Get out!!! Eyes getting a bit heavy. Didn't have work today. Lazed around as usual. I watched The Talented Mr. Ripley. good film. Matt Damon, Jude Law, and Jack Davenport were all cute. I thought though Damon and Davenport were gonna get it on. Instead he killed him. Just like the movies and Hollywood, you know? Oh well. gotta go.
Love,
Rick
June 28, 2000 1:48 a.m.
Dear God,
Once again I'm writing after the clock has struck twelve. I just talked to Andy. Maybe it's cuz we like each other, but I always seem to feel uneasy talking to him. I want to match his voice, a timid and shy one, with his body which doesn't really fit. hmm maybe cuz in the only pic that I've seen of him He doesn't seem shy at all. gosh I don't know what I would do if I met him. I'd really like to hug and kiss him for life ever. I would be able to control myself, right. Yes, I know Father Tim said it's for marriage but he said he thought that b/c he's conservative. An "R" [Republican] as Casey would say. I remember when I was labeled an "R" last year and I remember when Val had trouble going through the alphabet and eliminating "R." I wonder where my brother is. He took the car (yes again). I don't want to lose faith in my brother. I really don't, but you know he's done this soooo many times b4. At least I don't have work tomorrow, but my mom does and Billy might prevent her from getting there. Shame on him. I realy hope he comes to Church on August 13th in remembrance of Papa and Daddy. Yuck! I'm peeling. Now to talk about Dogma. I don't see why Dave got all worked up. Of course, I'm really one to talk seeing as I get worked up over stupid stuff, too, like Britney Spears. Anyways, I learned from Billy that Kevin Smith the writer/creator guy is Catholic and went to Catholic school K-12th so most of the stuff well make that some of the stuff was accurate. It was just a bit exaggerated. It did have references to gayness like all the moves I've seen. Hmm America's new secret obsession. The cussing was a bit much. I wonder if these "memoirs" will be made into a book one day. It would have to be made posthumously, of course cuz I'd die if anyone read this. It holds all my skeletons in the closet. (Sigh) I'm [word I can't understand, looks like "hot"] and a nobody. Who would want to read my story? People, teens, just like me, that's who. people with the same struggles like Andy. I sure hope my mom didn't read I mean look up that site about NARTH she is a little too nosy for her own good. Well as long as she never and I mean NEVER confronts me about it I think I'll be all right. I talked to Elizabeth Elliott today. As part of my duty as Secretary of NHS, I have to bring in a snack for 37 people on Thursday, August 11th. I hope I'm a good secretary. I wonder a lot how I get myself into these things. Am I stretched too thinly. Please, God, give me the strength to make it through senior year. Ugh, I'm reminded of summer reading. What a drag! Well you know I'm gonna procrastinate. I guess the least I could do is buy the books. At least no reports except for Religion. At least w/ reports It's concrete. It's always about the concrete, isn't it. These are some wise words. I love that who battle between flesh and spirit, concrete and abstract, yada yada yada (Good Seinfeld.) Elaine was my favorite character. Get out!!! Eyes getting a bit heavy. Didn't have work today. Lazed around as usual. I watched The Talented Mr. Ripley. good film. Matt Damon, Jude Law, and Jack Davenport were all cute. I thought though Damon and Davenport were gonna get it on. Instead he killed him. Just like the movies and Hollywood, you know? Oh well. gotta go.
Love,
Rick