Aug 17, 2007 19:57
Only a few people know this- my mom is having heart surgery on Tuesday. The surgery is minor, if you can call anything on the heart minor. I've only told one person in my main circle of friends about my mom's upcoming procedure. I don't want them to feel sorry for me or worry about me. They have their own lives to worry about and I don't want to worry them for no reason.
I want the positive vibes, prayers, good energy for my mom's surgery. Is it really valuable to have my friends worry about something I am used to?
My mom has been in and out of the hospital for the past three years. I should be used to this right? I don't know if I can ever get *used* to this- but I am about as used to it as one can be. Normally a person having surgery would worry a loved one- but for the past three years I have seen her in and out of surgery and hospitals. Almost once a month she has been in a hospital for something. I'm so used to it, I'm working at 2:00 pm that afternoon.
I don't think there's anything wrong with her. I figure it's just minor. I could be fooling myself- would doctor's be performing surgery if there wasn't? This is the same procedure she had in November- obviously it didn't work. I don't know.
The doctors consistently tell her she is between a rock and a hard place. The meds she is currently on stop the blood clots- but a could cause her to bleed in her brain- which would kill her. If she chooses the other medication- it would prevent her from a brain hemorrhage- but not the clotting. My mom has had cerebral hemorrhage caused by her MINOR strokes, and several blood clots. Part of her kidney isn't functioning because a stupid clot killed part of it.