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I hate to jinx it, but my life is so good right now!
I have definitely been making strides in the ways I'm interracting socially. Although I'm not quite where I want to be in that effort, I am more present and less anxious in general.
I stopped taking the anti-depressants a week ago and it's been really easy- No mood swings at all! I did have a terrible headache for like 3 days straight but even then I was feeling good about things. The weather has been really nice, so I'm wondering if I'll start to feel gloomy if the sun goes away like it did for the entire month of June. We'll have to see. Being off the meds is definitely a huge achievement for me. It's only been a year since I started taking anti-depressants, but a year is a long enough time to be in a fog.
I miss some of my friends. Sometimes it's hard to think about reconnecting with people because I have such a history of falling into old behavioral patterns and I'm mostly trying to seek out new and exciting connection possibilities that aren't weighted down with "remember when..."
I went to Philadelphia community acupuncture twice and I think I'm going to make it a habit. Although it's reasonably priced, it's essentially taking an extra $100 a month from my not-so-budgetted budget. Maybe next week I'll write up a budget for myself. If I was Governor Rendell I could just suggest that all my state employees take a few months off without pay. What a jerkoff!
Yesterday I made tomato sauce from tomatoes and basil that came from the dirt in my backyard! I also made Kale on the side- also from the garden. MMM MMM Mmmmmmm.
Rachel is coming to Philly tonight! Then tomorrow we're gonna see gay movies together. It'll be "Make the Yuletide Gay" and "And Then Came Lola." I wanted to see the lesbian shorts because I heard "Tremble and Spark" was awesome: but alas, they were sold out.
Anyone going to movies during the week? I'll be at "City of Borders" on wednesday night. Any others?
I have definitely been making strides in the ways I'm interracting socially. Although I'm not quite where I want to be in that effort, I am more present and less anxious in general.
I stopped taking the anti-depressants a week ago and it's been really easy- No mood swings at all! I did have a terrible headache for like 3 days straight but even then I was feeling good about things. The weather has been really nice, so I'm wondering if I'll start to feel gloomy if the sun goes away like it did for the entire month of June. We'll have to see. Being off the meds is definitely a huge achievement for me. It's only been a year since I started taking anti-depressants, but a year is a long enough time to be in a fog.
I miss some of my friends. Sometimes it's hard to think about reconnecting with people because I have such a history of falling into old behavioral patterns and I'm mostly trying to seek out new and exciting connection possibilities that aren't weighted down with "remember when..."
I went to Philadelphia community acupuncture twice and I think I'm going to make it a habit. Although it's reasonably priced, it's essentially taking an extra $100 a month from my not-so-budgetted budget. Maybe next week I'll write up a budget for myself. If I was Governor Rendell I could just suggest that all my state employees take a few months off without pay. What a jerkoff!
Yesterday I made tomato sauce from tomatoes and basil that came from the dirt in my backyard! I also made Kale on the side- also from the garden. MMM MMM Mmmmmmm.
Rachel is coming to Philly tonight! Then tomorrow we're gonna see gay movies together. It'll be "Make the Yuletide Gay" and "And Then Came Lola." I wanted to see the lesbian shorts because I heard "Tremble and Spark" was awesome: but alas, they were sold out.
Anyone going to movies during the week? I'll be at "City of Borders" on wednesday night. Any others?