I got in a major car crash on the highway yesterday.

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i had a whole long entry that got deleted. In short: Due to a leftward list my car has and an overcompensating right-hand jerk to the wheel that i gave, we smashed into a concrete divider, did a 360, smashed into it again, missed plumetting off a bridge by about 5 feet and almost certainly dying, and totalled my car. I have airbag burns on my arms and face, as does my cousin in the front seet my two cousins and i were taken to the hospital on stretchers in an ambulance. Aside from being shaken up we are fine. It was terrifying and I have a new appreciation for life, and i had a spiritual revelation. I know there is some benevolent power out there watching over us. i know my grandfather never did abandon me in the car like he did in my reoccuring childhood nightmare; he was there the whole time. He was there with me.

It's literally a miracle that i'm alive. just like life itself is a miracle. It's pointless to waste it with negative emotions.

Libby, i miss you. Whatever it is i did initially, i'm sorry. I had no idea that you were hurting so much. The last message i left on your phone, i left that out of hurt and anger and i didn't mean any of it. I'm so sorry. I love you and i always will. Please call me? I don't know what I do if something like what happened to me yesterday happened to you and you DIDN'T make it and I never got to tell you that.

Life is precious. Don't waste it.