I think I miss you most on Wednesdays and Saturdays
Well my last entry wasn't a pleasant one and I can't say this one will be much different. School started and my summer life and many of the people in it faded away with the change of seasons. Everyone asks me if I'm okay and I pretend to be really motivated and say yeah I'm focusing really hard on school this semester. Don't get me wrong school has actually been going really well and my productivity level has increased immensely. I guess telling other people I'm okay is somehow supposed to reassure myself that I am, but I'm not completely. I have great friends who care so much and have showed so much compassion it's unbelievable. But at the end of the day everything is still the same. My crying spells have lessened and I'm sleeping a little better. I'm such a dumb girl though and I hate being this weak. My mom is the only one who can really help me and she is so far away and I can't drive home everynight at 12:30 a.m. just to talk to her. The familiarity of home is comforting and here in Ann Arbor it's just a dreamland of school and parties. Time heals all wounds but I don't want time unless it's being subtracted and we're going in reverse so maybe I could have changed some of the things I have done in the past.
BUT just to balance out this entry here is a list of sweet things happening in my life right now:
*I have a fabulous apartment with a huge room and a walk in closet, a huge bathroom, and a balcony that faces the street.
*I applied to be a Morale Captain for Dance Marathon so that I can be more involved and if I get it I will be so happy.
*We're having a party on Saturday because Ju Ju is turning 20! So if you're in the area come on by.
*Michigan beat the shit out of Notre Dame and we're now ranked #6
*My brothers are coming to visit in a few weeks and we're all going to the Iowa game together.
*Once again I have fabulous friends.