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so i think that knot in my stomach is actually just an ulcer.
and the point was to make me stop clenching my teeth but now i only bite harder causing for bigger headaches//
puffy eyes when i wake up.
i want to sleep for a real long time. i'll wake when everyones lives have moved on and then i'll know i can, because you did too, because then i won't have a choice.
how am i supposed to know how to do anything if i can't even decipher my own emotions this is ridiculous..
i'm smart i just don't have common sense i do but i don't use it and how do you know when you're in love or if you were or if you lied to yourself...i can't tell and i think that i might be capable of wishing that it was love so much that i'll be afraid to even think that it wasn't, because that would make me a liar, stupid, and that i deliberately hurt the both of us.
so i'm just going to keep calling so i can end up crying and you can tell me to drink water and relax and i'll lie down and you can tell me things are going to be okay and i'll just pretend that i believe you, pretend that you're moving the hair back from my forehead.
Hable con Nancy..
me pregunto si yo me habia preguntado de corazon si de verdad te amaba y entonces si me habia preguntado si tu me amabas a mi.
funny...nunca dude tu amor por mi...nunca...i always felt loved by you...pero si me habia preguntado si yo de verdad te amaba a ti...i think my experiences with love have been few and i don't know very much...so what did it mean? i never loved you or doubting just meant i was afraid.
survey says: fear is the most universal of human characteristics.
and the point was to make me stop clenching my teeth but now i only bite harder causing for bigger headaches//
puffy eyes when i wake up.
i want to sleep for a real long time. i'll wake when everyones lives have moved on and then i'll know i can, because you did too, because then i won't have a choice.
how am i supposed to know how to do anything if i can't even decipher my own emotions this is ridiculous..
i'm smart i just don't have common sense i do but i don't use it and how do you know when you're in love or if you were or if you lied to yourself...i can't tell and i think that i might be capable of wishing that it was love so much that i'll be afraid to even think that it wasn't, because that would make me a liar, stupid, and that i deliberately hurt the both of us.
so i'm just going to keep calling so i can end up crying and you can tell me to drink water and relax and i'll lie down and you can tell me things are going to be okay and i'll just pretend that i believe you, pretend that you're moving the hair back from my forehead.
Hable con Nancy..
me pregunto si yo me habia preguntado de corazon si de verdad te amaba y entonces si me habia preguntado si tu me amabas a mi.
funny...nunca dude tu amor por mi...nunca...i always felt loved by you...pero si me habia preguntado si yo de verdad te amaba a ti...i think my experiences with love have been few and i don't know very much...so what did it mean? i never loved you or doubting just meant i was afraid.
survey says: fear is the most universal of human characteristics.