a tidbit about my family/past
K, so i was replying to a friends message and this is what I wrote. Since its kinda a memory/past thing I decided to post it here to so that I wouldn't lose it/forget it.
My gramma's mormon/LDS so she's strict about a lot of things and has set opinions on a lot of things as well.
Like, for instance, the religion that I lean most towards is Wiccan. I don't call myself a wiccan yet cause I haven't done much reading/studying it. SO I don't completely understand it. I do have tons of books on it so I am in the process of becoming one. But yah, my gramma thinks that anything that Wiccan or Witchcraft is strictly of the Devil. -_- She won't even try to understand it. *sighs*
Its kinda hard to though, cause my gramma is the first real mother figure I ever had. Before I moved down here in my sophmore year, I used to live with my uncle off and on and then my other gramma to. But my other gramma is a lot older and she's not very strict. She couldn't really control me or my sister even if she tried :< and yah, my uncle was there but he wasn't really strict either. I lived with my mom a few times but all those times, she only took me to school then I'd walk over to my grammas till she came to pick me up. When I got home with my sister we'd pretty much be on our own. So when I moved up here my gramma julie was really strict, but she loved us. So yah, thats why I see her as my first real mother figure. When my boyfriend came down to visit for the first time, I didn't have a problem with him meeting my mom, but when it came time to meet my gramma I was terrified that she wasn't going to like him. I wanted her approval and her to be proud of me so much.
Its kinda funny...I guess.
Anyways, so yah, I guess I seek approval from my gramma in a way as I would from a mother. Now that I'm older its not as bad or I don't seek it as much and its not that big of a deal anymore though.
Anyways :p that was my ramble, lol.
My gramma's mormon/LDS so she's strict about a lot of things and has set opinions on a lot of things as well.
Like, for instance, the religion that I lean most towards is Wiccan. I don't call myself a wiccan yet cause I haven't done much reading/studying it. SO I don't completely understand it. I do have tons of books on it so I am in the process of becoming one. But yah, my gramma thinks that anything that Wiccan or Witchcraft is strictly of the Devil. -_- She won't even try to understand it. *sighs*
Its kinda hard to though, cause my gramma is the first real mother figure I ever had. Before I moved down here in my sophmore year, I used to live with my uncle off and on and then my other gramma to. But my other gramma is a lot older and she's not very strict. She couldn't really control me or my sister even if she tried :< and yah, my uncle was there but he wasn't really strict either. I lived with my mom a few times but all those times, she only took me to school then I'd walk over to my grammas till she came to pick me up. When I got home with my sister we'd pretty much be on our own. So when I moved up here my gramma julie was really strict, but she loved us. So yah, thats why I see her as my first real mother figure. When my boyfriend came down to visit for the first time, I didn't have a problem with him meeting my mom, but when it came time to meet my gramma I was terrified that she wasn't going to like him. I wanted her approval and her to be proud of me so much.
Its kinda funny...I guess.
Anyways, so yah, I guess I seek approval from my gramma in a way as I would from a mother. Now that I'm older its not as bad or I don't seek it as much and its not that big of a deal anymore though.
Anyways :p that was my ramble, lol.