Welcome to real life.
I guess I've just been feeling rather run down lately. Not entirely sure what it is that's causing the fact that I'm pretty much just waiting for the day to be over so the next one can begin. I honestly don't know what it is. I just have these feelings of general neutrality, and I'm finding that I'm easily prone to crying over absolutely nothing. Just almost did so earlier...
I don't know. I want to be able to find the problem, and neutralize it quickly so I can actually feel happy. I don't know if I've ever actually been happy for a while now, but I can honestly say that I'm not anywhere near happy. It'd be nice to actually feel like I'm not a burden to anyone, or that I'm stepping on eggshells. I don't know if I should see a Doctor on this, or if I should just let things run their course. I'm not too keen on seeing a doctor, because I'd have to ask my dad to drive me there or something. And I know damn well he wouldn't like me doped up on some medication he doesn't think I need. I'm not sure if I can call myself depressed or what not, but I just want to find a way to actually feel bright and happy again. Maybe it'd be nice to feel different than usual.
...But yeah. I'm probably angsting like every other hormonal teenager. Sorry about that. I really just want something to look forward to in my life, if anything at all. I kinda want something to feel nice instead of just a temporary happiness that dulls out faster than you can imagine.
Either way, yeah. Welcome to real life, me. It ain't a good place at all.
I don't know. I want to be able to find the problem, and neutralize it quickly so I can actually feel happy. I don't know if I've ever actually been happy for a while now, but I can honestly say that I'm not anywhere near happy. It'd be nice to actually feel like I'm not a burden to anyone, or that I'm stepping on eggshells. I don't know if I should see a Doctor on this, or if I should just let things run their course. I'm not too keen on seeing a doctor, because I'd have to ask my dad to drive me there or something. And I know damn well he wouldn't like me doped up on some medication he doesn't think I need. I'm not sure if I can call myself depressed or what not, but I just want to find a way to actually feel bright and happy again. Maybe it'd be nice to feel different than usual.
...But yeah. I'm probably angsting like every other hormonal teenager. Sorry about that. I really just want something to look forward to in my life, if anything at all. I kinda want something to feel nice instead of just a temporary happiness that dulls out faster than you can imagine.
Either way, yeah. Welcome to real life, me. It ain't a good place at all.