abandoning my journal... hmmm????

[queenpunkitty]

ok, so i actually got a few people who miss me... on my journals... well a few is three, and they are people that have been with me for a while... so for them i will not stop postin... at least i know who reads and who cares... thank you...

however, i don exactley have all the time in the world, between work, and school, and a boyfriend, i dont have much free time, but i can fit it in... but i cant post all the time, so dont forget about me...

anyways, *correction* 310mg's of anti depressants... 60 prozac and 250 lithium the lithium is treating me for bi polar 2 disorder... i feel a lot better...

i still miss valley a lot, i wish i could have finished up there instead of coming to fucken rfk, i think i would have been a lot happyer, i knew everyone there, and here i am a fucken weird kid who knows maybe 2 people i miss it... i have been hanging out with andres, my ex... its nice cas paul isnt all psycho and controlling about me hanging out with another guy, so things with that are ok.... the only thing that gets me when i hang out with andres, i my past at valley, i miss it, who i was, how i changed, how i felt... i wish i could turn back time, and never go to rfk...

i fucked up...

i wanted to grow up to fast...

and now its gone...

all of it...

i have one and a half credits to graduate, and i am getting no where...
if i was at valley i guarentee i would have grauated already...

im considering saying fuck that last one and a half credits, dropping out and getting my ged...
i know it sounds stupid, but i cant deal with rfk anymore... i come home wanting to cry... i hate school...

fuck school...