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I gotta say last night was an awesome night.. It was ALOT of fun and it was much needed.. I don't get out much anymore so it was nice to do something.. I want to say thanks to Audi and Lea for inviting me to there house! I love you guys! I had a great time.. I'm sorry I couldn't stay longer but ya know.. the call of the wild was...well.. calling! haha.. Chris and I had a great time too.. we hung out and laughed and talked and just had a good time.. he's really a great guy and he deserves the best.. you should have seen the way he was looking at me last night.. he'd lock eyes with me and it was almost like he was trying to see right through them.. it gave me chills.. I've still got my wall up around my heart though.. I can't let myself fall for him.. I care about him.. I really do.. but until I know what he's looking for I'm not going to bring that wall down.. if he wants me.. he's going to have to bring that wall down himself.. brick by brick.. I refuse to let myself get shit on again.. I will never let that happen again.. as for tonight.. who the fuck knows what will happen.. for all I know I could end up in Coudy again! haha..