he loves me... he loves me not...
How do you tell one of your best friends that you don't think you can see them anymore?
The thing is, i've totally fallen for him, like can't get him out of my head, like he is the only one i want to be with all the time, like oh fuck i just don't know what to do...
He's with someone else, yet tells me i'm perfect... not perfect in the complete sense of the world... just perfect for him, which means more to me really, and also fucks with my head more.
I don't know what to do - i don't want to say he has to choose because there's nothing really going on between us cept for the fact that we've told each other that we like each other so it's hardly fair to say that... I guess a more diplomatic "can you please decide what you want and let me know where i stand in all of this - either you want me and you're going to do something about it or you're gona just treat me like a friend and pretend this never happened" might be better...
If he chooses the last option (which i think he will because i mean after 4 years you get comfy and the world outside your comfort zone is frightening, and i don't know if he will be that brave) then i just don't know if i can be around him, because every time i see him i just want to hug him and kiss him and it's just so so hard to hold back...
I know i need to tell him that he has to do something, but i don't want to lose him and i don't want to not see him... but i'll have to... for my sanity.
I just hate this waiting.
The thing is, i've totally fallen for him, like can't get him out of my head, like he is the only one i want to be with all the time, like oh fuck i just don't know what to do...
He's with someone else, yet tells me i'm perfect... not perfect in the complete sense of the world... just perfect for him, which means more to me really, and also fucks with my head more.
I don't know what to do - i don't want to say he has to choose because there's nothing really going on between us cept for the fact that we've told each other that we like each other so it's hardly fair to say that... I guess a more diplomatic "can you please decide what you want and let me know where i stand in all of this - either you want me and you're going to do something about it or you're gona just treat me like a friend and pretend this never happened" might be better...
If he chooses the last option (which i think he will because i mean after 4 years you get comfy and the world outside your comfort zone is frightening, and i don't know if he will be that brave) then i just don't know if i can be around him, because every time i see him i just want to hug him and kiss him and it's just so so hard to hold back...
I know i need to tell him that he has to do something, but i don't want to lose him and i don't want to not see him... but i'll have to... for my sanity.
I just hate this waiting.