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After six consecutive nights of drinking (and getting drunk), i feel that I have successfully relived the nights of spring break in high school. i am burned out from drinking and never want to again, but it was necessary for spring party week here at sewanee. plus, i didnt' have any work, so what else was i supposed to do? If one year ago I saw myself saying this, I probably would have cried. But, that is what Sewanee does to you. However, it was grand times with my friends and I would do it all over again b/c it was one of the last enjoyable times that i will have at sewanee. next is exam studying and crunch time, while two or three days of partying for graduation week follows the last exam (monday night through wednesday night, may 9th through 11th) then it will be time for me to be back at home for good, something that is amazingly close and so good to hear. i've probably gained about five pounds this week from drinking and eating shittily, as well as going to the gym only once. but who cares...weight will come and go, and spring party week at sewanee will only come once for me. i will enjoy my cheeseburgers, pizza and beer for one week, and be the typical college student, damnit!!! I haven't talked to Daniel more than once this entire week...something that is very strange to me seeing as i find time to talk to him almost every day, and have since i left for school. i miss him, but in a weird way. i miss being around him and hanging otu with him, but i'm scared of hanging out this summer since we've both changed so much and both have our separate lives. i just think that the whole idea of being a senior has made him extremely cocky. he doesn't say hi to my mom or brother at soccer games b/c he is too busy being 'badass', and there is just a tone in his voice of superiority and distance...much like that of steve or jon...although i love those boys. i just have grown up this semester, although its been painful and emotionally wrecking, but i've realized that all of those idealistic expectations that i have for a love life just arne't real and don't come true, at least in a long distance relationship. people can't stay the same, especially being away from each othe rfor so long. if things don't work out in life the way that you would love for them to, it doens't mean that it is awesome, but it will definitely be okay.