TARA. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH OF MY LIFE YOU JUST EXPRESSED? I love you. Now you're going to get a bunch of shit regurgitated to you followed by my responses.
Deep down I have the awful feeling that no one will ever love me in that romantic let's have sex all day kind of way. And it terrifies me.
Honestly, this is probably the scariest thing I can ever think of. I feel like my desire to feel wanted is...overwhelming to say the least. I don't know if I'll ever learn that it's alright to be by myself.
There's this part of my brain that still tells me that I'm playacting. That I've decided to call myself a lesbian because I suck at making relationships work with guys and becuase I think it makes me cool and different. And I HATE this little voice in my head because sometimes I believe it and it makes me hate myself.
Alot of things that have happened lately...they've brought this back. And I'm more willing than ever to believe it, and it's incredibly confusing. I've taken to calling myself bisexual, but even that seems like it doesn't fit. And where I thought lesbian fit before, I'm not so sure of that anymore either. WTF, TARA?
I don't make any sense. But you said alot of what I've been thinking lately. You win a cookie.
Also, I'm happy school and stuff is working out. That is very, very, very good. I on the other hand, am considering changing my major.
Deep down I have the awful feeling that no one will ever love me in that romantic let's have sex all day kind of way. And it terrifies me.
Honestly, this is probably the scariest thing I can ever think of. I feel like my desire to feel wanted is...overwhelming to say the least. I don't know if I'll ever learn that it's alright to be by myself.
There's this part of my brain that still tells me that I'm playacting. That I've decided to call myself a lesbian because I suck at making relationships work with guys and becuase I think it makes me cool and different. And I HATE this little voice in my head because sometimes I believe it and it makes me hate myself.
Alot of things that have happened lately...they've brought this back. And I'm more willing than ever to believe it, and it's incredibly confusing. I've taken to calling myself bisexual, but even that seems like it doesn't fit. And where I thought lesbian fit before, I'm not so sure of that anymore either. WTF, TARA?
I don't make any sense. But you said alot of what I've been thinking lately. You win a cookie.
Also, I'm happy school and stuff is working out. That is very, very, very good. I on the other hand, am considering changing my major.
<3 x's infinity.
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