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Oh my gosh it's been forever since I posted. Them blocking LJ at work makes it really difficult for me to update because that's usually when I do it. On my days off I'm with family and surprisingly very busy.
I want to try to update at least three times a week if I can. Maybe four, since that's the amount of days I have off a week. Maybe right before I go to bed. :) That'd be a good time.
What's happened...
My brother got married today. That was cool and I had fun going. They just did it at the courthouse for now and then we went out to dinner. June 25th they'll have a more formal ceremony.
I got off Medifast and gained back all my weight plus four pounds. :( It was just too expensive to keep going on right now with paying for Aaron to go to school. I just can't seem to diet well on my own unless someone is directing me and telling me what to do. Which Medifast did. Buuuuut... Weight never stays off going on those diets and then going off. I'd have to eat that way forever. Umm, no.
We're taking Aaron out of the school he is in because there are just too many kids there that are mean. They've pushed him, kicked him, taught him curse words and gave him a black eye. The director won't do anything about it. She won't even kick the kids out. She even tried to tell us Aaron was making stuff up or taking it out of context. Wow, not sure how you can do that when someone kicks you. Also, Aaron is at t he age where he doesn't know how to lie.
This new school is small and also three times a week. And half as expensive as the other school. We talked with the director and the teacher and they both said that children who continually behave as those other kids did at his other school get kicked out. I am all for that.
Jim graduated the 16th of this month so now he's looking for a job. It's kinda crazy that it's all over with. It seemed so sudden. I'm silly about it because I saw him so much with going to school. Once he starts working I'll see less of him. :( And Aaron will have to be with a babysitter much more than at home.
So it all gives me anxiety.
I really got into the idea of becoming the designated charge nurse on nights. I'm working on a certification class, going to a charge nurse seminar, and plan to get my bachelors. And then this gal with more seniority than me and equal skills (maybe even more than me, actually) decides she wants to come back from days to nights and apply for it.
I have to be honest. I was really bummed. I'm working hard for this position and really want to devote myself to it and my co-workers when I'm at work. Hell, I'm even using my off-time to take classes for it. That's time away from my family. I was willing to give a little to get it. And now I'm pretty sure I won't get it.
This chick is unfortunately loud, a know-it-all (you can't tell her anything, she already knows it) and butts into everyone's business, even when she isn't in charge. I'm finding it really hard to work with her. I did vent about not wanting to work with her because of those qualities to my co-workers. I feel bad now, but I was upset about having to work with her and not get the job possibly.
She also makes examples of people sometimes in front of others or teaches in a manner that clearly says she thinks you are a dumbass. That's when she's not busy telling you how great she is and how much she knows.
It makes me wonder. Does she really think that way or does she have a low self-esteem that she's hiding behind all that bluster?
I just feel like she is going to interrupt our flow on nights. We all work together, we're all pretty mellow and go with the flow, and we all just mesh like one unit. None of us are super loud as she is (I hate loudness. I'm not around it at home and I worked a dayshift the other day for extra money and I found out what loud was all about).
Granted, she has a lot of knowledge, can be very helpful and stays calm in crazy situations. She has her good points. And I worked with her the other day and it didn't go bad. So I just need to work through my feelings and shut my mouth. I need to focuse on her positive points and just ignore her from time to time if she's getting on my nerves.
I also plan NOT to let her bowl me over. I am pretty good at standing up for myself anymore, and I try really hard to do it in a civilized way and not degenerate to a catfight. Sometimes I think that's how you have to get through to people like her and earn her respect. In some ways she is like a bully.
As for dayshift, I think about going but I get so wishy-washy about it. I like the flow of nights and days is so loud and crowded. Doctors and discharge planners and nutrionists and therapists at every computer so it's hard to chart. You stake out a place with your clipboard and no sooner do you come back is someone else sitting there.
You've got doctors coming at you from every direction. They're calling you with orders, pulling you away from paitents and up to the front desk for orders. Your patients are coming and going for tests, surgeries, and you discharge people too. Also I lose five dollars an hour for eight hours of my shift.
On the other hand it would be a normal schedule for my body and maybe I'd get rid of some of my issues of anxiety, depression, and weight gain. Or at least help it in some way to decreased the effect of them. And I suppose I'd get used to the flow. I just hate all the chaos. Nights is much easier for me to organize the environment and make it flow smoothly. On days you kinda get swept along.
Basically I'm torn and I just don't know what I really want. I am going to wait it out and apply for the designated position anyway. See what happens. More dayshifts are coming up soon because two people are going on maternity leave and one is downing her hours.
So. Wait. Be patient. Be calm. Go with the flow. Remember you at least still have a job at all.
Okay. Sorry, I'm done ranting and spilling my mind out to you guys.
I'm sorry too, but I'm going to delete all my replies that have been sitting for a month or two and just start fresh. And try REALLY hard to keep up. I can't promise I will, because I get so distracted by things and seem to go through strange spurts where there is hardly any internet and then there is tons.
I want to try to update at least three times a week if I can. Maybe four, since that's the amount of days I have off a week. Maybe right before I go to bed. :) That'd be a good time.
What's happened...
My brother got married today. That was cool and I had fun going. They just did it at the courthouse for now and then we went out to dinner. June 25th they'll have a more formal ceremony.
I got off Medifast and gained back all my weight plus four pounds. :( It was just too expensive to keep going on right now with paying for Aaron to go to school. I just can't seem to diet well on my own unless someone is directing me and telling me what to do. Which Medifast did. Buuuuut... Weight never stays off going on those diets and then going off. I'd have to eat that way forever. Umm, no.
We're taking Aaron out of the school he is in because there are just too many kids there that are mean. They've pushed him, kicked him, taught him curse words and gave him a black eye. The director won't do anything about it. She won't even kick the kids out. She even tried to tell us Aaron was making stuff up or taking it out of context. Wow, not sure how you can do that when someone kicks you. Also, Aaron is at t he age where he doesn't know how to lie.
This new school is small and also three times a week. And half as expensive as the other school. We talked with the director and the teacher and they both said that children who continually behave as those other kids did at his other school get kicked out. I am all for that.
Jim graduated the 16th of this month so now he's looking for a job. It's kinda crazy that it's all over with. It seemed so sudden. I'm silly about it because I saw him so much with going to school. Once he starts working I'll see less of him. :( And Aaron will have to be with a babysitter much more than at home.
So it all gives me anxiety.
I really got into the idea of becoming the designated charge nurse on nights. I'm working on a certification class, going to a charge nurse seminar, and plan to get my bachelors. And then this gal with more seniority than me and equal skills (maybe even more than me, actually) decides she wants to come back from days to nights and apply for it.
I have to be honest. I was really bummed. I'm working hard for this position and really want to devote myself to it and my co-workers when I'm at work. Hell, I'm even using my off-time to take classes for it. That's time away from my family. I was willing to give a little to get it. And now I'm pretty sure I won't get it.
This chick is unfortunately loud, a know-it-all (you can't tell her anything, she already knows it) and butts into everyone's business, even when she isn't in charge. I'm finding it really hard to work with her. I did vent about not wanting to work with her because of those qualities to my co-workers. I feel bad now, but I was upset about having to work with her and not get the job possibly.
She also makes examples of people sometimes in front of others or teaches in a manner that clearly says she thinks you are a dumbass. That's when she's not busy telling you how great she is and how much she knows.
It makes me wonder. Does she really think that way or does she have a low self-esteem that she's hiding behind all that bluster?
I just feel like she is going to interrupt our flow on nights. We all work together, we're all pretty mellow and go with the flow, and we all just mesh like one unit. None of us are super loud as she is (I hate loudness. I'm not around it at home and I worked a dayshift the other day for extra money and I found out what loud was all about).
Granted, she has a lot of knowledge, can be very helpful and stays calm in crazy situations. She has her good points. And I worked with her the other day and it didn't go bad. So I just need to work through my feelings and shut my mouth. I need to focuse on her positive points and just ignore her from time to time if she's getting on my nerves.
I also plan NOT to let her bowl me over. I am pretty good at standing up for myself anymore, and I try really hard to do it in a civilized way and not degenerate to a catfight. Sometimes I think that's how you have to get through to people like her and earn her respect. In some ways she is like a bully.
As for dayshift, I think about going but I get so wishy-washy about it. I like the flow of nights and days is so loud and crowded. Doctors and discharge planners and nutrionists and therapists at every computer so it's hard to chart. You stake out a place with your clipboard and no sooner do you come back is someone else sitting there.
You've got doctors coming at you from every direction. They're calling you with orders, pulling you away from paitents and up to the front desk for orders. Your patients are coming and going for tests, surgeries, and you discharge people too. Also I lose five dollars an hour for eight hours of my shift.
On the other hand it would be a normal schedule for my body and maybe I'd get rid of some of my issues of anxiety, depression, and weight gain. Or at least help it in some way to decreased the effect of them. And I suppose I'd get used to the flow. I just hate all the chaos. Nights is much easier for me to organize the environment and make it flow smoothly. On days you kinda get swept along.
Basically I'm torn and I just don't know what I really want. I am going to wait it out and apply for the designated position anyway. See what happens. More dayshifts are coming up soon because two people are going on maternity leave and one is downing her hours.
So. Wait. Be patient. Be calm. Go with the flow. Remember you at least still have a job at all.
Okay. Sorry, I'm done ranting and spilling my mind out to you guys.
I'm sorry too, but I'm going to delete all my replies that have been sitting for a month or two and just start fresh. And try REALLY hard to keep up. I can't promise I will, because I get so distracted by things and seem to go through strange spurts where there is hardly any internet and then there is tons.