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HOLY SHIT!!!! (Okay, shit isn't holy so I have no idea why we say this).
I just realized that Jim woke me up mid-sleep (I went to bed early because I wasn't feeling too good. Thank goodness I just feel a little nauseated this morning. I'm so worried of catching the flu here. We've had honest to good cases of the Swine Flu in the hospital on the floor I work). He woke me up and said maybe we shouldn't get married after all.
WHAT THE EVER LOVING FUCK?!?!?!?!
You know how you are half asleep so you forget these things until they just slam you upside the head?
So after 4 years of being engaged he decides maybe we shouldn't get married?
He's still sleep and granted we need to talk about this more, but my gut is twisting here and I'm a little freaked out and a little close to crying. And I needed to talk about it somewhere with people I know who will be objective.
Why this sudden change of heart? I'm dying to shake him awake and ask him. He knows me. He knows when it's forever it's forever. I remember him... Now I remember him saying he thinks I'll get tired of him and leave him. Isn't that like saying you don't trust me when I tell you I love you and all of your faults no matter what?
Holy shit again.
I just realized that Jim woke me up mid-sleep (I went to bed early because I wasn't feeling too good. Thank goodness I just feel a little nauseated this morning. I'm so worried of catching the flu here. We've had honest to good cases of the Swine Flu in the hospital on the floor I work). He woke me up and said maybe we shouldn't get married after all.
WHAT THE EVER LOVING FUCK?!?!?!?!
You know how you are half asleep so you forget these things until they just slam you upside the head?
So after 4 years of being engaged he decides maybe we shouldn't get married?
He's still sleep and granted we need to talk about this more, but my gut is twisting here and I'm a little freaked out and a little close to crying. And I needed to talk about it somewhere with people I know who will be objective.
Why this sudden change of heart? I'm dying to shake him awake and ask him. He knows me. He knows when it's forever it's forever. I remember him... Now I remember him saying he thinks I'll get tired of him and leave him. Isn't that like saying you don't trust me when I tell you I love you and all of your faults no matter what?
Holy shit again.