Nervous
I'm workin my first overnite shift tonite 11p-7a @ the hospital.
Do you ever get that feeling like......I'm working...wait maybe I'm not...but I don't want to call and find out?
I feel like that....it's weird.
Because technically, I'm not susposed to work on my own until friday...but they needed someone tonite so I offered about two weeks ago. My boss told me that I could work but technically I'm still "orienting" etc.
Anyways...I'm scared that I'm gonna get there and they're gonna be like................."What are you doing here" lol.
I've never really worked with the skeleton crew before (4 RNs, 1 doc, two interns) so I'm scared that it's gonna be super busy and that i'll have a lot of pressure put on me etc. I know that I know my shit and everything...but I get so nervous.
Ever since I saw that patient die infront of me.....while I was doing chest compressions etc....I get nervous about doing that again. ::sigh:::
Plus, I'm nervous about staying awake.
I woke up @ 10a today and then went back to sleep 1-4p.
I should really try and sleep for another two hours before I go to work..but I am to anxious and I know that i wont be able to settle down etc.
The Rns were all warning me about working overnite, because it screws up your body and you usually experience nausea w/ vomiting around 5am. I duno...i'm kinda hoping that won't happen.
Anyway..I am going to relax and stuff before work.......think of me before you go to bed!! Since I'll be saving lives while you're sleeping :-D.
Much Love-Meredith
Do you ever get that feeling like......I'm working...wait maybe I'm not...but I don't want to call and find out?
I feel like that....it's weird.
Because technically, I'm not susposed to work on my own until friday...but they needed someone tonite so I offered about two weeks ago. My boss told me that I could work but technically I'm still "orienting" etc.
Anyways...I'm scared that I'm gonna get there and they're gonna be like................."What are you doing here" lol.
I've never really worked with the skeleton crew before (4 RNs, 1 doc, two interns) so I'm scared that it's gonna be super busy and that i'll have a lot of pressure put on me etc. I know that I know my shit and everything...but I get so nervous.
Ever since I saw that patient die infront of me.....while I was doing chest compressions etc....I get nervous about doing that again. ::sigh:::
Plus, I'm nervous about staying awake.
I woke up @ 10a today and then went back to sleep 1-4p.
I should really try and sleep for another two hours before I go to work..but I am to anxious and I know that i wont be able to settle down etc.
The Rns were all warning me about working overnite, because it screws up your body and you usually experience nausea w/ vomiting around 5am. I duno...i'm kinda hoping that won't happen.
Anyway..I am going to relax and stuff before work.......think of me before you go to bed!! Since I'll be saving lives while you're sleeping :-D.
Much Love-Meredith