Take it from me: Never let your guard down.
I could really kick myself in the ass. I guess I did tell Wayne that I was drunk Wednesday night when I talked to him and if I didn't then he could tell by my slurred speech, because he didn't call yesterday and I still haven't heard from him. Maybe I'm just overreacting, who knows?
Anyway, yesterday I waited on him to call until like 6 then me and Nessa went out with Joe, Jay, Charles, Chris and Morgan. We didn't really do anything just sat around and talked about all the stupid shit we've done in the last year.
Vanessa is wanting Dustin but Chris told him that her ex said he caught Chlamydea from her. So now Dustin is like afraid of her. Haha. I gave him hell all night for telling Dustin that. For Christ's sake I know she doesn't have it: we visit the health department together on a regular basis. In fact we have to go again sometime in the next week. He apologized and said he would set the record straight but he was pretty drunk last night so he will probably forget this morning.
Charles kept staring at me last night and I wanted so badly to say "See something you like?" I would cross that bridge again if I ever got the chance. Supposedly he still likes me he just thinks I'm a player. That's funny huh?
Guys piss me off so bad. Like Wayne calls me everyday acting like he likes me so much and then all of a sudden he drops it all because I got drunk? Well excuse me for having a love for alcohol. My bad! That's ok though, I don't want a man who can't accept me for me. I need a man who understands that I like to party. If they can't deal with that then don't even fucking call me!
It's a known fact that I'm a wild child. So don't give me no bullshit about how I should change. I mean come on. I should have never told him that I quit drinking though. So I guess it's kind of my fault for lying.
I'm proud of Nessa, as far as I know she didn't do any pills last night. Unless she done them before she came to my house. But her eyes weren't read and she was fully aware of everything going on around her.
Tonight Nessa, Maggz and I are Manchester bound. I love partying there. Those guys are so f'n cool and funny. Perhaps I will run into Brandon Perkins tonight. I've not even tried to get up with him or anything but I'd say our paths will cross tonight at some point. He's so hott. We hooked up last weekend and he has a girlfriend. He showed me her picture even and she's wayy cuter than I am. Everyone thinks it's so fucked up because he showed me her picture. Get real, it's not like we are talking or even considering dating in the near future. We're just weekend friends. At least with him there is no drama involved. That's usually how I keep things, but I fucked up and let my guard down. More than anything it pisses me off that Wayne hasn't called and I'm a very spiteful person. ;)
I had a dream last night that Shannon married Tina and she tried to pick a fight with my little brother. So I jumped up and was like "Bitch if you have a problem with Jay you need to take it up with me outside." So went outside and fought all over the parking lot of this gas station. Then Shannon comes and breaks us up and ends up leaving with me. Very strange. At the end of the dream I was calling Vanessa's dad's office leaving him messages telling him how much I missed him and wanted him to come see me. Hahahahaha. You would have to see her dad to understand the true comedy there. Her dad hit's on me all the time and he was doing it yesterday when he left the office. We left after he did and I wrote him a love letter from a secret admirer and put it in his desk just to be fucking with him so I guess thats where that part of the dream came from.
I talked to Jessicat for the first time in forever last night. Her migration to Austrailia is being delayed because she's having a hard time getting a visa to go. I still can't believe she's going to move all the way around the world to live with a guy she met over the net and is still yet to meet in person. Crazy! But if it makes her happy then I'm happy for her. I love J-cat. We've done some retarded stuff which I won't go into detail about because people have finally left us out of the gossip ring and bringing it up would just create a stir again.
I'm killed from rehearsal this morning. It seems like they get harder and harder everyday. Exactly two weeks until opening night. There are supposed to be some big names in the audience too at Cincy so I get nervous just thinking about it. I'm so afraid I'm going to trip over my own two feet or my voice is going to crack. I will die of embarassment if either happens. I would probably migrate to Austrailia with Jess and change my name. All 5 of our shows have already sold out and if we get rave reviews we will go before Christmas and do a show in Boston. I've never been to Boston but I hear it's really neat.
I'm going to go take a shower and maybe even order something to eat. All this time I was supposed to be following a strict diet so I wouldn't gain weight and my costumes will fit the way they should and all I have done is lived off of Taco Bell and Southern home cooking. Hahaha. I figure I work it all off in rehearsal everyday so they can lick my crack cause Momma got to eat and Momma likes her greasy foods. I'm out, Later!
Anyway, yesterday I waited on him to call until like 6 then me and Nessa went out with Joe, Jay, Charles, Chris and Morgan. We didn't really do anything just sat around and talked about all the stupid shit we've done in the last year.
Vanessa is wanting Dustin but Chris told him that her ex said he caught Chlamydea from her. So now Dustin is like afraid of her. Haha. I gave him hell all night for telling Dustin that. For Christ's sake I know she doesn't have it: we visit the health department together on a regular basis. In fact we have to go again sometime in the next week. He apologized and said he would set the record straight but he was pretty drunk last night so he will probably forget this morning.
Charles kept staring at me last night and I wanted so badly to say "See something you like?" I would cross that bridge again if I ever got the chance. Supposedly he still likes me he just thinks I'm a player. That's funny huh?
Guys piss me off so bad. Like Wayne calls me everyday acting like he likes me so much and then all of a sudden he drops it all because I got drunk? Well excuse me for having a love for alcohol. My bad! That's ok though, I don't want a man who can't accept me for me. I need a man who understands that I like to party. If they can't deal with that then don't even fucking call me!
It's a known fact that I'm a wild child. So don't give me no bullshit about how I should change. I mean come on. I should have never told him that I quit drinking though. So I guess it's kind of my fault for lying.
I'm proud of Nessa, as far as I know she didn't do any pills last night. Unless she done them before she came to my house. But her eyes weren't read and she was fully aware of everything going on around her.
Tonight Nessa, Maggz and I are Manchester bound. I love partying there. Those guys are so f'n cool and funny. Perhaps I will run into Brandon Perkins tonight. I've not even tried to get up with him or anything but I'd say our paths will cross tonight at some point. He's so hott. We hooked up last weekend and he has a girlfriend. He showed me her picture even and she's wayy cuter than I am. Everyone thinks it's so fucked up because he showed me her picture. Get real, it's not like we are talking or even considering dating in the near future. We're just weekend friends. At least with him there is no drama involved. That's usually how I keep things, but I fucked up and let my guard down. More than anything it pisses me off that Wayne hasn't called and I'm a very spiteful person. ;)
I had a dream last night that Shannon married Tina and she tried to pick a fight with my little brother. So I jumped up and was like "Bitch if you have a problem with Jay you need to take it up with me outside." So went outside and fought all over the parking lot of this gas station. Then Shannon comes and breaks us up and ends up leaving with me. Very strange. At the end of the dream I was calling Vanessa's dad's office leaving him messages telling him how much I missed him and wanted him to come see me. Hahahahaha. You would have to see her dad to understand the true comedy there. Her dad hit's on me all the time and he was doing it yesterday when he left the office. We left after he did and I wrote him a love letter from a secret admirer and put it in his desk just to be fucking with him so I guess thats where that part of the dream came from.
I talked to Jessicat for the first time in forever last night. Her migration to Austrailia is being delayed because she's having a hard time getting a visa to go. I still can't believe she's going to move all the way around the world to live with a guy she met over the net and is still yet to meet in person. Crazy! But if it makes her happy then I'm happy for her. I love J-cat. We've done some retarded stuff which I won't go into detail about because people have finally left us out of the gossip ring and bringing it up would just create a stir again.
I'm killed from rehearsal this morning. It seems like they get harder and harder everyday. Exactly two weeks until opening night. There are supposed to be some big names in the audience too at Cincy so I get nervous just thinking about it. I'm so afraid I'm going to trip over my own two feet or my voice is going to crack. I will die of embarassment if either happens. I would probably migrate to Austrailia with Jess and change my name. All 5 of our shows have already sold out and if we get rave reviews we will go before Christmas and do a show in Boston. I've never been to Boston but I hear it's really neat.
I'm going to go take a shower and maybe even order something to eat. All this time I was supposed to be following a strict diet so I wouldn't gain weight and my costumes will fit the way they should and all I have done is lived off of Taco Bell and Southern home cooking. Hahaha. I figure I work it all off in rehearsal everyday so they can lick my crack cause Momma got to eat and Momma likes her greasy foods. I'm out, Later!