goin missing for a while, i got nothin left to lose

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oh my god i'm so happy!!(well the happiest i could be with given situations, obviously!)after palnning for weeks to go and see barney today, i thought i wouldn't be able to afford it so resigned myself to three days off work with nothing to do and no money to do it with. but then Supermum decides to give me the money because she saw how gutted i was about not going, and bless her, wanted me to get the space i need to sort my head out. and to talk to Barney The Amazing about everything because he walways somehow fixes everything - even if its just with drink and drugs!so now i have three days off work which i get to spend with the most amazing guyfriend ever (other than daddy) and have the money to do it properly. and i get to leave this godforsaken place for a little while with all its shitty memories and crappy treading-on-eggshells social life. however, if by friday my head isnt even slightly sorted out i think i'm just going to kill myself coz if a mini holiday cant help, what the fuck can?!?!

anyways, time to stop doing my usual rant about something to the extent that i then cant get ready to do it! so i'll see you when i get back. love&stuff, an excited little B xxxxxx