to be photgraphed or not to be photographed??

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something really cool happened to me today. one of my friends is a photographer and he asked me to be in a shoot for his portfolio which is gonna be like a 50's burlesque type thing-a-mee and i'm really excited about the idea because for the shoot i'd be getting paid in Gin(woowoo!), and the photographer (dave) and the guy that does hair and make-up for him (which is andy) are gonna pay for me to get corset piercings for the shoot which will be soooo fucking cool. except for the fact that im gonna have to be in {pretty huge} underwear for it. which im fine with as they both have long-term girlfriends, and they know i've got myself a boy i love to death, and their girlfriends are gonna be at the shoot with us. but i can see Nick understandably having a problem with me standing in underwear in front of guys he doesnt know. but i also know he finds it very hard to meet my friends here. so i'm kinda in a lose-lose situation. i really wanna get into some form of modelling and now i have the opportunity with people i trust, but if he's not happy with the idea i can't exactly blame him. if it was him taking photos of girls i didnt know while they were in their underwear i'd stress the fuck out. and i'll not do it if he has a problem with it. but i really wish i could work out how to tell him how much he really doesn't have to worry about it. and how much i'd appreciate doing it - it'd cettainly do my confidence some good!i've told dave and andy i'll not do it if it upsets nick and they want to meet him for some drinkies so he knows its cool and we're all just friends but i also know thats not exactly an easy option for him...bless his shy heart.

i really hope this works out coz its based on the photography of andy's grandaddy who's apparently a vaguey famous photographer (but i don't know names of such folk so it means nowt to me, it just sounds like hella fun and reyt cool!). i guess i shall just have to talk to him about it next time we speak. but i so hope this works out, i think it'd be so many funs! corset piercings, man! wicked times!!!

lotsa loves and all that shit

B xxxxxxxxxxx